And I Cry...

Tonight is one of those nights...I miss him sooooo much I can't sleep

and I cry...

I put on one of his T-shirts, spray his cologne on me, look at our pictures, listen to old voice mails for his voice, and cry....

I can't put enough pillows on the bed for comfort, I cling to the teddy bear that he gave me ( the first thing he ever got me)and cry....

I sit in his lazy boy chair to be close to him, in the dark, by myself and cry....

I get mad at myself, I should be stronger than this, and I cry....

It's one of those nights that I miss him.....and cry!

 

vickigarcia vickigarcia
31-35, F
2 Responses Feb 9, 2009

Wow you totally just described my friday nights. It's not anything to be ashamed of. If i go through the day without tearing up at a Kleenex commercial i've had a good day. You can't bottle those feelings up, they end up just bursting out. Cry it out when you need to, its ok. lovez

Bless, Its good to have a good cry. It gets all of our emotions out and then we pick up the pieces and move on. Look at how strong you are. Even after many years and lonley nights I still have times I break down a bit. Don't beat youself up. Were not robots were human and we have emotions and feelings. I'm here if you ever want to chat. Your not alone.x