I'm Soooooooooooo Sad

Ok. I have only seen my hubby 29 days out of the last year and I don't know when he'll be able to come home for R&R. At first, I was dealing with it. I was saying to myself that i wasn't like the other wives who said they cried sometimes and it was unbearable. I was going through life as if nothing was wrong. Then yesterday, it finally hit me. I cried so hard I was in physical pain. I just don't know what to do. I am seriously depressed! I know I will find the strength to go on eventually, but right now I feel like going to bed and not waking up until he's home.

keke6285 keke6285
22-25, F
3 Responses Mar 22, 2009

Yeah I hear you I have had more than one of those break done and cry days. Especially if I let myeslf think of the what if ..

Thank you so much alwayslovingfromafar. Although I know I will make it through this, I really needed someone to tell me everything will be ok.

I'm so sorry you've hit that point but the strong ones usually do at one point or another. And its perfectly normal for you to feel the way you do. Sometimes crying is the only way you can feel what you have been suppressing the entire time he is gone. There is absolutely nothing anyone can do or say to make you feel any better. The only fix to this your husband coming home and if it were your choice he never would have left. Hell I offered to break my husbands legs for him before he deployed. lol but he didn't like that idea too much. You are obviously doing something right if out of all of it you can still say that you will work through it. So don't go doubting your abilities because you had to pause and take a time out for yourself. Before you know it he'll be home and you wont even think about the time that he was gone.