Only Four Days In...
this past saturday i said "see you soon" to my husband, PFC infantry with the US Army. he boarded a plane sunday to head for afghanistan to live out a year-long tour. i am absolutely devastated. we have known each other for a little over five years and been together a majority of them. he joined the army in august of 2009 and spent his time for basic training and AIT at Ft. Benning, GA. family day was the weekend of halloween, and on october 31st, the love of my life and best friend got down on one knee, gave me a ring and asked me "the" question. aside from our wedding day, that was the happiest day of my life. we talked a lot about when to get married, but ultimately decided it was best to do it before he got orders in case it was somewhere i couldn't accompany him. so while he was home on christmas exodus, on december 31st, we had a small but absolutely perfect ceremony at a sweet little chapel and new year's party here at home. our honeymoon was hardly a honeymoon at all, considering he needed to report back to benning january 4th - but we plan on treating ourselves to a real one when he gets home next spring. anyway.. he spent three weeks back in GA waiting for orders (if any organization had their **** together, you'd think it would be the US military.... WRONG) before he had to report to ft. drum, four hours away from home. about a week later, he learned that he would be deploying right away. after a little over a month full of in-processing and briefs, the army took my heart to afghanistan. that's the end of my story. i'm a mess. my heart hurts. i got a message this morning from him that said he wasn't in afghanistan yet and wasn't sure where he was other than on an air force base with a crappy wifi connection, but i'll tell you something. i've been thanking God all day for that crappy internet connection. i've been sick since sunday night with worry, just waiting to hear that he's alright. i know he's not even in any danger, but the thought of him so far away is scary on it's own.
wow this ended up being alot longer than i anticipated. for anyone who took the time to read, thank you. and please feel free to share any feelings/advice/thoughts. i am new here, just need an outlet & friends who can relate.
i'm going to write my husband a letter that i can't even send until i get an address, and who knows when that'll be..