I became a professional artist at age 16 but art was the last thing in the world I would admit I wanted to do. My parents were very controlling and opinionated and felt art was a hobby not a career and then encouraged me to become anything but an artist. I won awards in art and was called all kinds of great things but was ashamed because my family didn't seem to take it or me seriously.

I graduated from college with a degree in advertising and worked in every field besides art except for my sculptures I would sell in galleries on the side as a hobby. I spent over half my life trying to be what I thought my parents wanted me to be and then it dawned on me that my parents only wanted me to be happy.

It was that moment I decided to stand still and let the chips fall where they may. I stopped trying and I realized that I loved creating things and that it was ok. It wasn't dumb or risky or a bad choice to do what comes naturally. However I am not sure exactly what to do next.

I have been dreaming about this day for so long and now it is here but I have nothing to inspire me. Before the contrast of not being allowed to do it made it like I had to do it and so I did, effortlessly and now that this is all I really need to do I am frozen. Not wanting to do the same thing as before but not sure how to go about it.

I am a few classes away form having a fine art degree so maybe I will just go back to school and see where that leads me. I think that is what I will do.
LaureMC LaureMC
41-45, F
Aug 7, 2010