Am I Really An Artist Anymore?Since I've been doing graphic design work for the last three or four years and working much more with computers than with pencil and paper, I wonder sometimes if I'm really what you'd call an artist anymore. Generally speaking, I design print layouts and website templates. I work a lot with Flash animation and I'm learning more about programming so I can make websites work better. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy what I do; other wise, I wouldn't do it. But since I design for a living, I don't come home and draw anymore. As a matter of fact, my drawing skills went from decent to suck as soon as I fell in love with Photoshop and Illustrator. Mostly, if I'm going to unwind and do something "free and artistic," I usually play the guitar (music being my dual passion alongside design).
Sometimes I look back on my days as a kid when I used to constantly draw and think that I was more of an artist back then. Visual art used to hold no borders or constraints; it didn't have rules; it was anarchy. It could be good or bad; precise or sloppy; it didn't matter. But now when I approach visual art, before I even start thumbnailing, I find myself concepting; overthinking; overanalyzing and agonizing. I start thinking of target demographics; color palettes; fonts, and typographic harmony. But lately, since I've spent the better part of my twenties learning the principals of design and studying different approaches, I wonder if I'm more of an artist now than I've ever been.
What IS the definition of art? Is art a free-form ex
Am I really an artist anymore? I suppose I am. My art simply went from being self-serving and directionless to being focused and purposeful. It also went to serving two different masters: the public at large and my bottom line. I suppose, at least for now, that my days of visual free association are over. But in a way, I like having a purpose to what I do. Maybe one of these days, when I'm older, I'll rediscover fine art and the magic that a pencil once held. Perhaps age will help me find a good balance between all of the things I've learned and the anarchy I once craved as a kid. It's a balancing act.
gooddave 31-35, M 4 Responses 6 Jun 13, 2011