Intimidated

  I've incurred some brain damage. I can no longer draw. I have no sense of perspective/spatial relationships. I still love to paint though. I'm doing my second painting after the brain damage and it's so hard. I have to see it in my head as I could approach with my disabilities. It makes for some fun surreal kind of work but it's so limiting. I just did a background on a canvas that turned out kind of cool. I am scared to death of doing the actual painting. I have no idea how it's going to turn out, what my brain will allow me to do, I'm scared of mucking up the background. Anyone else feel anxiety when approaching a canvas ? It used to be so relaxing.

bitterdregs bitterdregs
46-50, F
Feb 16, 2010