Rational Atheism & Intuitive Spirituality

I have never believed in a single, omnipotent god. To me, even at 4 years old, the concept just seemed stupid - even more than comparable myths like the Loch Ness monster or Santa Claus, and I noticed that structurally, major religions were very similar to those myths. Therefore, I concluded, the concept of this god was most likely to be another myth invented by humans to control other humans' behavior. My situation did sometimes call for me to try to invoke some higher power, as I was dealing with traumatic experiences which were really beyond what such a young girl should be able to cope with on her own. In these times, I tended to pray to ancient pantheist gods, which made more sense to me, having several different personalities and limited power, and sometimes being out of balance as far as "good/evil" was concerned, etc. Rationally, I was always an atheist, and I never do fully believe anything without substantial evidence.

That said, intuitively, I do have a kind of spirituality. That is, I feel a greater force present in art, nature, love, and sexuality. This I find bizarre and unsettling, because it's a very recent thing and I'm not entirely certain what I am experiencing isn't a sign of a schizophrenia-spectrum disorder. So clearly, I still maintain my skepticism even as I experience this. I will say though, it is a very nice feeling to have, this warmth, this protection, this love. I would describe this "spirit" as being an Earth Mother, to some degree, but she is really present in everything and everyone, for we all come from nature, we all love and are loved, and we all have a sexuality. Ha. Anyway, my intuitive spirituality is one that encourages the pursuit of things I like, instead of a restrictive religious thing.
rowingineden rowingineden
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3 Responses Aug 12, 2010

This is lovely to read and very relatable for me. You clearly have an intelligent, inquisitive and rational mind, but having this disposition doesn't mean one is excluded from having feelings of wonder, deference, awe, i.e spirituality.

It remains that it is far more logical, to my mind at least, that there is nothing rather than something. The fact that there is something, and that this something is experienced by a conscious being, calls for wonder.

This being is 'thrown' into a world without knowing anything, we are curious creatures and try to make sense of it all, we want to know our place in the over-arching framework, hence ancient societies forged creation stories or myths in the lack of an systematic method of producing knowledge, i.e. science.
Now science has come along, and this conflicts with this whole gamma of creation stories from times past.

Science can explain the what and the how, but not the why. I myself am an atheist as well, but am deeply spiritual too. A sort of pantheistic conception, where we are mediums or vessels, a way for the universe to get to know itself.

I recommend Sam Harris to you if you're interested in these subjects.

Peace and Love my inquiring friend.

You are both somewhat right - but I doubt I would get into a distinct religion or spirituality, because then I would have to define and confine my spirituality, which I doubt would ever be compatible with my actual beliefs or even my disposition.

Kinda like the Tao?