I'm An Attention ***** And I Need Help.

I'm coming to grips with my problem.  I seek attention way too much.  I crave it every second of the day - when I don't have it I feel depressed and disregarded.

I seek it from everyone - friends, family, strangers, whoever I can get attention from.  Some of my most cherished experiences are from times when I was in the limelight.  

I'm on facebook constantly updating my status in hopes that someone will respond to it.  When nobody does, I feel hurt.

Everything I do revolves around attention.  I'm sure even me writing this story has some underlying ulterior motive to gain attention.

Several of my past girlfriends described me as selfish.  Now I understand why.  I would do nice things for them but it always involved a way of making me stand out in some way.

It's getting in the way of things and making myself feel horrible.  I smother people in my life with things that draw attention to myself.  I'm in an environment where there isn't much room for personal attention, at least not at the level that I crave.

I need help.  I don't know how or what type of help, but I need help.  I have helped myself a bit by stopping myself from interjecting semi-related comments about myself into conversations that I have with people - I used to always focus on changing the topic of discussion to myself.  But ultimately, I need some serious help getting away from this.  I'm still addicted to attention and it isn't going away.

GIAnonymous GIAnonymous
22-25, M
Feb 22, 2010