Emotional Wreck And Thats Not Even The Half Of It..
So my emotions are all over the place..
i think this is the worst its been in 3 years, i guess its sort of been building up.
So i was in school, and towards the end/graduatiing ect..
I had a massive fallout with my best friend, she sort of went into stalker mode, i had to have a restriction put on her to leave me alone,
as soon as she left me alone, i lost contact with all my other friends and my attitude turned to 'i have no friends, so why bother going out?'
my family got drove out our house because of a gang with weapons, so we ended up staying with my auntie for 3 months, that put me in a strange place with no-one to talk to apart from family..
we finally moved into a new house which is out of the city..
the nearest park to us is a hour walk [whenever i was upset at my old house, i always used to sit in the park]
From not communicating with anyone for 3 years as such, ive developed social phobia..
..i cant answer the phone, answer the door, i cant get on a bus, or even just go to a shop without being in fear..
my mum and dad have litterally no money from paying the bills&rent ect..
so i sit around in a emotional wreck doing nothing..
the longest period of time i havent been out the house was 4 months
i just feel like i need a holiday to get away or go out..
but money is a major ob
i dont think ill ever get my confident-self back again..
but im hoping i do come back soon :(