I'm A Bit Of A Wreck

ok  here goes.....

post traumatic stress disorder

multiple years of depression, low-self-esteem, you name it....

brain tumor (astrocytoma grade II, right frontal/temporal 5 * 8 cm)

I started a 6 week radiation series end of jan and i was pretty cool about it, but now I'm just so tired and nothing makes sense anymore...the meds I'm taking are making me even more aggresssive and mood swingy than before....I'm having a permanent headache and trying to run the household - not succeeding particularly well....

Maybe I should hire one of those 'french maid' types to help clean up around the house.  oh wait, I'd have to pay which is hard when you don't have any money. I'm trying to fill out the forms for disability but even that is almost beyond my abilities.


Would someone just drag me around the back shed and bloody shoot me already?

notalostcause notalostcause
36-40, M
1 Response Feb 22, 2010

ok so things can get worse.....<br />
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last night had a nice chat with my wife that the last 12 years of unhappiness is enough. i admit she's right - we've never really had any 'fun' or 'good' times that lasted for any length of time and certainly none since we've gotten married. So I'm trying to find solutions that will enable her to be happy and our two kids too (they're 8 and 10 and don't really know what fun is either, being around a sick, depressed dad all of their lives).<br />
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I think we can all see where this has to go.