The Selfish Conflict

I feel exactly the same way. I have certain people who drain me more that others, and it physically hurts to be around them and feel their pain. Sometimes I don't know who I am anymore, if it's me that's feeling something or if it's someone else.

Wow ....I am just learning that I am and have always been an empath...I have consciously known that I am a healer and I "pick up others energies" just recently I was seeing someone and he had knee problems. I truly took on his knee problems and have had to deal with it for 3 months. Now I am going through a relationship issue. It seems as it always has been that when I am close to a person ( I some time ago learned how to "turn off " with strangers or family members) I become totally into them -I know exactly what they need to be alright -its as if some invisible fibers from my being can totally analyze them and "knows" what they need. I unconsciously become so absorbed in this process that i dont stop to tend to my own needs-when I do realize that I may need something in the relationship....now I m too emotional......People dont realize how discomforting and painful to embrace someone so fully so naturally and for it not too be returned. It as well a conflict of boundaries -Most people that I have attracted in my life personally were really people that needed some kind of healing from me...

I Agree with you also, to me it's like a trade, My good energy for their bad energy, and it seems to be on purpose sometimes. I get people coming up trying to get a rub on me sometimes. I pick up a lot of negative energy from them. I'm pretty sensitive to energy, I think I have a guide helping out with the negative energy and love. I constantly try to surround myself with love be it music or Romance movies to try to keep an atmosphere of love around me. I've been practicing a lot of different grounding techniques. Every time I come outside If a neighbor is out, I usually receive negative energy from them. I've started using crystals now because of their high frequency it helps keep the energy level around my higher. Even in my lowest moment a song pops in my head and I start singing it and chills start covering me and making me feel great. I hear a Affirmation that has helped a little

" I see and draw to me by divine love and joy those beings that seek to learn from my experience, the sharing shall elevate us both" I've been getting more good energy around me through it.

You make life a lot easier for yourself when you realize that you are not the saviour of mankind in a world that really don't need saving...also the one guy said he tries to "live with people" and "not for people"...living with people realizing that you are just like them in many aspects so no thinking that you are more important than them or that you can even help them in some aspects where you are struggling with the same issues in life.

I am the most patient person on earth it seems. I try to heal with whatever tools and gifts that I possess. That is my calling. Like a changeling I can become your equal moving with you to calm the raging waters. I have answers for your questions unless I don't. I am open and honest. This will be an experience in remembering who you are.

@ Narrator,



I am not at any point trying to prove or disprove anything.. I am passing information that to me is in some way, applies to what we all seem to be.

What you say of the abilities of some is true.. though I myself have been granted none of these attributes. But we are more than a mammal species, more than what is so apparent.



We are a complex duality, body and spirit and each has a process that is to be fulfilled. Being empathic is but a part of us that allows us to better understand our inner self as well as that of those near us. The only voluntary aspect seems to be the one of understanding our own self which to me is most primary.



Yet it is easy to project our spiritual self into our physical self as is the reverse. This is why understanding our own self is primary. This could seem then as a selfish act but is in reality being true to ones self.



.................................................... Lou

@ narrator,



Yes.. I am simply passing information that can be verified by another sourse. And aslo .. yes its true that it is personal as I mentioned..personal to us all. The mechanizum is in place and has been from the start of the mammillian era.. so it have ben a while, It has evolved in each mammal type to where, we as humans can "use" the information it brings.. you can also see it in many other mammal types..such as a pet dog.



We however have a much greater variety of chioces, first being the amount of sesitivity we allow.. and that is what makes this what it has become in mankind. The pet dog is still relying in his instincts where we survive by the logical process... not at all the same.



The Limbic System is not volantary.. we send, broadcast our inner states to those who will recieve but not always understand. Yet the process is one of, perhaps and first, to understand our own inner self.. The pet has no way to relate to this.. while a human can. This is the volantary portion of the system.. to first understand self.



It would seem an abstaction to many.. but it is not. Yet, within each human is what I call ... the human condition ... something we must all come to grips with.. But few take the time and great energy to do this.. thus the saying ... To thyn own self be true ...



So it becomes mystical thing and shrouded in hearsay.. as the human condition will create and then create the story line that is lived... so its then a choice...



............................................................... Lou

hi narrator. mm, i have a similar dilemma of sorts. Grew up in a fundamentalist christian home. Broke free of that many years ago, but the notion of always being there for others stuck. I have asked myself"am i here because i truly want to help, or am i here, because then i am a "good girl"?" For the past few years, due to complete exhaustion, mentally and spiritually, I have been trying to look after myself more, but at a cost. I used to feel everything that the other was going through, used to want to save every soul....then when I needed saving, they had flown away! Starting to get a balance on the whole thing now, at last>. Feel my early christian household has a lot to answer for, although, they knew no better. We gotta look after ourselves first, I will never wring myself out with "giving" anymore. But, at the same time, I still know I need to be there for others, as what is the point of it all? Many blessings to you.

Being empathic can ssem to be personal and of some mystery.. but being empathic is none of these..

All huamns are born empathic.. indeed all mammals.



Look up ... The Limbic System ... and read how and why this is the way we all are.



............................................... Lou

Hey narrator,



Yeah, I understand that too. I gave all to my ex. Everything I had and she gave nothing back. It was the first time I realized there are people so closed off, so walled that I could feel nothing from them and I was lost. I had no bearing and only then realized how much I relied on my gift without ever knowing it. The good guy finishes last. Life has taught some hard lessons and I have had to harden my heart. I had nothing left to give and I could take nothing back. In time the well in me filled again but perhaps this also taught me how to be gaurded. I am no longer as subject to the emotional strif of this world as I once was. Oh, I still feel it and keenly at times but I don't take it into my being as I once did. I keep it outside myself. I learned to cope and function almost normally in this world. And yes, I have become a little more narcissistic, a little more self absorbed because of it. I no longer live for others but I strive to live with others. Not to say I'm an ***, far from it but I think of myself a little more often now.

There was a point in my life that I literally felt suffocated. I couldn't breathe in the presence of certain people. I shut down, and tuned out for a good while. I had to...I felt too much for far too long, and I had little to nothing as far as self preservation was concerned. Eventually, I learned the give and the take of this bizarre world. I found peace in the fact that I am just simply...me.