i have been struggling with how to live an authentic life and not alienate others.  i sit now, on a friday night (peer-pressure at 26?) bec i am terrified of experiencing with my friends the rejection as i have received as of late from my family.  yet this is no sob-story, simply a tale of what-the-****.  my family is of the narrow-minded sort, and a few years back as i finally found solace in the intellectual arena and felt strong enough to break free of the meaningless repetition of daily, conscious-less life, my family rejected me.  the emotional burdens of this happening were too great.  i retreated, ran away.  i feigned light-hearted interest in their daily affairs in order to avoid the all-consuming question of why- why i do what they do not...

ohhhhh the solitude!!!!  cry cry cry. f-that, ya know?

yet, what else am i to do?  continue on, android in the making, malfunctioning right beside them? 

should i instead live my own life (whatever that means), and risk alienating those precious realtionships which, i suspect, in the end make life worth having lived?  

meeeese meeeese
4 Responses Jun 13, 2009

If it makes you happy then it was a life worth living. If you are not being true to who and what you are then you aren't happy. I'm right there with you on this front. I have traveled across the USA going about what i feel driven to. my family does miss me i am told in the midst of one drama or the next. Would i be happier there doing their things rather than going about my life and going where i feel the need to and in the process learning about myself and others? No. do i miss just being home and feeling a part. you bet. who says we must choose? only others.

If you want to move to Québec City in Canada, tell it to me!

If your life is authentic why would you need the acceptance of others ?<br />
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Accept that you will not be accepted by most people and enjoy the brief moments you have when you make a real connection with another person.<br />
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Revel in your different-ness!<br />
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Look for value in the simpleness of those people. No reason why you can't have both.