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Am I An Earth Angel? Why Is My Heart Telling Me Yes But My Mind Is Teling Me No?

Wow where do i even begin....first I want to say that I am trying to find others that are like myself either well past finding themselves or on their way as myself or on the cusp of awakening....My whole life ive felt diffrent, like i never belonged here out of place.....as i grew older into my adult years i still felt the same way but a little more fit into the society that we are in now. But now with a heavy feeling that I am supposed to be doing something that i had a mission or a big purpose for being here. things here in my life started not to matter, i went to diffrent school and changed diffrent majors cuz i didnt know what i wanted to do but everything i tried i didnt like. On Janurary of 2011 which i call my awakening, everything in my life changed out of the blue i started on some obssesed search on the internet for answers that i had no idea what the questions where. One Day a GF at the time gave me a book about Pleadians and i started to read it....like out of knowwhere a switch came on like i sudden wave of remembering certain things that i was reading and conferming other things i thought in my mind about life, about this world, and all of us in it. So then i found the Galactic Federation of light a dn so on and so forth...then just recently i came upon a video about Earht Angels, or Incernated Angels....then i saw a video of 10 ways or symptoms to tell if your an Earth angel.....lo and behold every one of the symptons was me to a T, it was like this person was describing me in order and knew me better than anyone ever would. I started to get happy at first cuz i knew...i alwasy knew there was somehting byond to what This form is, I always felt that there was more to me than this and that there was somehting that made me diffrent from so many......but then "reality hit" Now of course I began to doubt any of this cuz I watch way to many movies and was into comic book heros and all that kind of stuff, plus not to mention i have a very creative inmagination and i am always coming up with ideas, stories, and charachters.I told a friend about this he knows me better than anyone on the planet. He watched the video and was not convinced yeah neither was I i mean it could be a coincidence....Then a few days later i found a web page article that had a listings of lightworkers, starseeds, earth angels and other beings and ways to tell if you are any of them.....and guess what Danny was 10 for 10 again and these were even more descriptive than that video i saw.....this is insane these peopl eknew my inner thoughts n feelings and thigs that have happened in my life....this cant be a coincidence.....still nto convinced even as i write this ut i am starting to look back at my life and realizing the life i lived and the beliefs i had and how i choose to live my life.....Ever since i could remember LOVE was the most important thing to me...........and as i began to grow into a teenager i felt like i was waiting or searching for someone, and even to this Day i am seaching for this someone..this has been an exhausting and frustrating search. Ive been hurt many times, mainly for being in bad relationships or staying in them when i should have left but never could. But to me nothing is more important than love and was always so confused as to why so many poeple dnt feel thatway...To me all i wanted to do was love and give love to others and help others, give others peace and happiness...but most of all i wanted my soulmate, the one i have been looking for for so long......The one that i i feel will make me whole cuz this whole time i have felt incomplete and lost...or left behind.....upon doing some more reaserch i learned about Twin flames and their connection to the Angels and more and more my actions my feelings and beliefs are starting to make sense......More and more htings are pointing to his direction but i cant tell if its cuz its real or im trying to make it real.....i alwasy loved the hero in movies, or shows, and my fav were the comic book heros i was in awe at these charachters not just cuz of their abilities but just for what they stood for, there moral charachter and selflessness to give to others....and sometimes the burden and weight that comes with it...I realted to them and decided i wanted to a live a life like them and follow the Heros Code....I also had such a fascination even to this Day about Jesus and wanted to give and hold love in my heart as he did.....so for most of my life that is how i decided to live....and to me there was nothing ore important than love still till this day and till the day i day....as i hit puberty i saw boys were more caught up with more of the sexual while i stll looked for romance and sweet gentle love growing crushes on girls and doing sweet tings like leaving them candy at their desk or leaving them secret admirere letters.... And still till this day i havent changed and have been made fun of by many of my male frinds for how i dont just go out and have unemotional sex .......thats another thing ...i dont have sex unless im in love.....I guess i hsould say i dont have sex I only make Love.....I also started to look and realize the impressions i have made o fpoeles lives and hwta i have done for them with the love i have given them and more and more all this makes sense.....then why cant i believe it still.....why do i feel like i am unworthy when i am probably very....Why do i feel like ther is no way but at the same time i feel i can stand tall and say What I am......Im loosing touch with REality cuz all that i thought to be real is not.....Im torn between two worlds.....and all i can do is think to where is my other half, is she feeling the same way....is she looking for me and feeling the weight of this world as i do.....Im tired of seeing people suffer, im tired of seeing and feeling pain.......Why are there people starving, Why are people full of hate and so many who care not for LOVE....Ive gotten to the point were anger consumes me cuz i feel like i cant take it anymore...i feel i dont do enough and there is more i shoudl be doing....All i want is the truth, i dont want no more games and lies.....TELLL ME DAMMIT AM I AN ANGEL OR AM I JUST SOME CRAZY GUY THAT LOST HIS MIND : (...I want the one i have been searching for for GOD knows how long......When will i find her, when will i have all that i dreamed of but have yet to feel......I dont know what to do but all i will do is what i have alwasy done....and thats is to give love to all i meet and to somehow get them to do that as well onto others....im trying to start a domino effect.....But i feel what i do is not enough......i just ned to know the truth  dont need anymore signs that i get....i need it in writing right in front of me.....im sorry for ranting but this has been so heavy on me and i just have noeone to talk to about this......why cant i just find her....why cant i help all of those that suffer and why am i the onle so blessed to not be in such misery while others are....thgs arent fair and i dont understand why : ( . there is so much more i want to say but righ now this has just turned into an emotional rant.....i know im not the only one going through this i just need an idea of what am i supposed to do.......and If i am an angel im def not your ordinary one lol cuz i cus like a sailor and am not as gentle as the ones on the christmas cards...but my heart is as pure as virgin beaches......I hope to hear from a Brother or Sister soon....thankyou for reading this if you haveand i wish you luck on your journey...Light and Love....carry that with you always and pass the torch so that they may do the same. Thank you again
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wow I feel like you are talking about me,i have also felt this way my whole life,my heart clearly tells me every day that this is true but than my mind takes over and says"who the hevk do you think you are "since I was little ive always been extremely sensitive and easily hurt,through the years searching for the perfect love I have been hurt so deeply that I built up a wall that protects me,although I am no where near perfect,and have made choices in my life that have hurt many on the inside I have always been very loyal to God and I truly hurt and repent for all my sins.there is so much I wanna say but I hate to going on about my self because I kno that most people rather here about themselves,and I know the typical reaction is "who does she think she is"anyways ive never really talked about this but im glad tha there are others who feel the same as I do....Thank you

please e-mail me at chris_shone2005@yahoo.com, I would really love to talk to you. please.

I feel the same way.omg reading this scared me a bit. It sounds as though you are more intune to your feelings of this. I have always felt that I am some sort of an angel brought to earth. I feel somewhere in my soul that God wanted me here but I put up one hell of a fight to try and stay in heaven but he was like no I need you to go to earth. I have always been very sensitive in a way to the world. You know how people always have an agenda? Well I don't I have always just wanted to see others happy and be happy without hurting anyone. I don't get any pleasure out of any kind of human suffering even if it means my pain. I have always just felt like I am in between two worlds. I think the best way to describe it is I feel like my soul is in more than 1 place at the same time. It is as though my soul is in heaven and in earth. I feel the struggle. I think this is why I don't live my life the conventional way. I do what feels right which can be seen as weird by others who don't get me. I don't too much believe in a lot of things people believe in. I have like this bonding with my soul which leads me a lot more than the expectations of the world. You sound a lot like me. It really was cool reading about your story. I am a 32 year old female in the US. Maybe we are angels. I wouldn't be surprised if God put some on earth to keep things balanced and going all to hell. I have a unique perspective on life that I know could only be given by God. It is a blessing because I see a lot that people don't see. And I can deal with a lot as well because I see the real truth. And I know I have a much bigger purpose and sometimes that can be a burden but then I realize it is God I must live for.

I know how u feel I've always felt like I don't belong. I'm only 13 so it could just be me. But I always say how if I was the richest person in the world I would help the homeless people and starving people around the world and if I were the queen of the world I would make sure there was peace because I never believed in war. I think it's ridiculous how people can be so evil. I've always been obsessed with otherworldly things. And I've always had this instinct to help people and animals cuz I want to be a vet. Usually when my friends get into fights I'm usually the first person to solve there problem and I rarely share secrets unless it involves hurting themselves or other people. When my bestfriend cut herself, tried to kill herself and was having unprotected sex at a young age i was the fist person she came to when she figure out what to do. I personally have never been in a relationship but I do have friends who are addicts and alcohol abusers but I'm still their friend cuz I want to help them.

You know your physical body is only an on loan shell, that is way you will not par take in a sexual nature with out your heart and soul, for you that is when all feelings are!! And not in your genitals ! I don't think you crazy( that just my opinion) I think your torn by the indifference, you question yourself in comparison to others of basic thought and conception , why? Be grateful you are not shallow of basic needs, but who you are embrace your difference it is you that will make a difference , walk you path in life , do not question the road just the direction 😘

hey... i m speechless.. it was as if u were discribing me n my pain.. i dnt knw y bt i was crying so hard at d end dat i was shaking literally..maybe it was releif dat m nt alone other people also feel dis way.. maybe we all r mad n crazy.. bt i really wanted to share all this to sme1 i was in hell for 3 yrs..i hd suffered so much pain in past just bcz i see god in every being i trust dem i cant resist myself frm helping them even if dey dnt deserve it in first place.. i ruined me n my powers in d process.. i was so lost and numb frm pain dat i could barely act.. n i alsohad dese tests bcz i was nt fitting anywhere my thinking was different my beleifs were different i was different n i didnt knw who m i?? i called for help everyday to angels to god.. to just end this suffering nd throw me back frm where i come or juss explain if i really am mad? n i was so obsessed wid knowing wat i had to knw i feel like i can not move on wid my life widout knwing my true identity n my truth i had 2 out of body experiences till now both were so intense it brought tears to my eyes.. in first one talked to my deceased brother in second my half body was flying above bed...i dnt even knw if second one was really OBE atall or i m coming to my powers bcz my eyes were open n i was moving.. i didnt leave my body i was f*** flying..surely it means smething n i m nt totally mad... i juss feel so right talking abt dis bcz i wanted to share it wid sme1 thanks for reading i hope i didn bored u...

I've had three out of body experiences and it freaked the u kno wat out of me. I always thought I was dreaming I never consider it flying

I feel the same, but I'm confused and don't have any one to talk to about it either… I have a few friends that know more about it, but we never have the chance to talk about it and I feel a bit embarrassed to ask. 0_0

Heey @dancruz931 i feel exactly like you, all my life love is the most important for me and i always give it to everyone and try to help everyone i can, also i can't accept how society is, i feel like i don't belong here and that this world is one big idiot place, i can't see how other people are so blind and stupid and who are in control of the people, i despise that they just can go their way without the great public seeing what is really going on. Also i find myself at the same state within relationships and i also desperatly look for that one, i don't belong in this world i know that. And i try to wake up as many people as possible to make them aware of what really matters, and i hope as much people as possible will love the way as we do

We need to talk

dear @dancruz931,
my name is lauren and there are a few things I felt the urge to respond with.
1. you are not alone. i felt alone my entire life. i admit sometimes i still feel alone even after my "awakening" which happened the 3rd of this month (2 days ago) .
2. i guarantee you.. after you stop searching for your soulmate.. and focus your energy on something else... right when you LEAST expect it you will meet the love of your life (if you haven't already). and don't ever doubt that because you WILL find that person who was meant for you... believe that!
3. if you truly believe with all that you have in you that you ARE an earth angel, then don't doubt yourself and be happy because you were born different and you see things on a level not everyone can. i see it as an honor regardless of the pain and suffering we have been through. you were born unique, sensitive, compassionate, loving, clever, creative, and most of all close to God. please don't ever forget that.
-Lauren.

I know....I feel the exact way..I've seen things that has happened right in front of me...I wish I could talk to you in person but I can feel it you are reading your post made me sad like I wanted to reach out to you..I feel like I am you it's strange..I've known all my life in the back of my mind but Wow things changed out starting seeing things with my own eyes..I don't know when you made this post but I wanna offer you my number 843 291 2093 my name is Candice...when you read this post you will know it's safe and I'm for real..

I feel the exact same way like an Angel living in the garden of evil. It's such a blessing yet such a misery, torn between two different worlds. I only want to give light to others

Hello. I just had my "awakening" last night. I have no doubt what we are Danny. Be strong and I pray more of us come together to help support each other in these trying times. Thank you for your article it was so helpful.

Hey. so glad i found all of you i had my awakening 2 days ago.

May the angels protect you and heaven accepts you, when it's time to go home.

Memory cannot be induced by someone else. Live as an angel and your rewards will be great after this life.

But I'm not a good person. I sin alot. So I think I'm just mentally ill XD

I know how you feel. You're describing me. I feel that my main purpose here on earth is to make everyone happy and to protect everyone including the one I don't know....

Feel exactly the same as you do. Really want to meet someone like me..

hello, my names warren, and iv got this feeling that av got a huge purpose in life, cuz of how things in my life align, first, i was born on august 15(i dont believe in horoscopes) but the sign is a lion, my dad told me that our family animal or sign is a lion, im a good leader and think that people should follow my orders not the other way around, but am a kind person not harsh or anything, i love animals alot, alot of people ask me for advice, i dont do well in a crowd, i think of making the world a better place, starting with my country, i try as much not to fight or become violent, am more of a peaceful guy, i dont get mad easy,..one thing that really got me thinking is when my aunt told me about our blood line and she said that it lines up till Jesus(the 'LION' of judah) when i try to tell people how all this aligns they think its a joke, i tend to listen to people and try to help them, so i dont know, am confused i dont know wether to believe my aunt, all of this is hard to explain, if i get time ill explain it much better

I feel the same way you do! And I'm only 15. I act exactly like you too, like I feel like I have a huge purpose. I found out what it is, but I have to wait to do it. And it's so crazy cause my birthday is August 15th. Haha! (: I'm a Leo too!

Wow, I thought I was the only 1 that felt this way. You are describing me over and over again your words. Yes, I believe that angels are amongst us on this earth. continue to go with God and follow your heart. Believe in what you feel in your soul. If in fact you do believe That you are 1 of the Lords Holy messengers , look deep into your own soul, And ask God. You'll find all the answers you need.

I have a felling that I am only here to observe human feelings but not partake in them. I should and will not. This does cause much hurt and depression. Something i so want but can't have. I am here to observer relationships and how they effect others. I in my 40's still a virgin and know I always will be. Starting to understand. My sister-in-law, a druid, em-path and can see I am an angel incarnated. I am so glad to have her. Let me know if anyone feels the same. I wanted to feel real human emotion so here I am.

I call myself MOReala im n Tx Austin I chose that name cuz im always on real things n searching4 moe realer people as myself I am always helpn others .I am so seriously bothered by feeling like Im on a mission but I have yet to truly kn what it is,I go n deal with things spiritually on a daily basis I mean I know im human but its mo to me then just that I have visions I be knowing things I shouldnt kn I strive for peace love n happiness/doing whatsoever right , but I get angry from being being hurt n misunderstood , neverthelessI chose peace when I know I could act outside myself .i stand out n have this way about me that others envy n sometimes hate n I just don't understand why .Im 34 a single mother who battles with myself I care not 2 fit n but really want to kn also if im a earthangle I have yet to find my soulmate after all my long bad relationships . However knowing who n what I am finding my true purpose so that I can complet my mission will make me more content with myself. I must say those who make a joke of this I pray u have better understanding of this o so real topic n people's lives

I'm not perfect but I feel like<br />
I have a heart as pure as snow and always do the right thing and I also seem to stay In relationships<br />
Longer than I should bc I'm<br />
Afraid to hurt thier feelings and I know most normal people don't think that way.I would like to know if a am an earth angel to.

A hearth as pure as snow... That sounds beautiful... But cold!

Hi :) I know what you are going through you are not crazy :)and know how you feel.I have always felt lost in this world and out of place like I have a huge* purpose in this world or mission and it overwhelms me and I feel like I need to get started.I love to help people I'm always helping anyone that I can,I love to make people happy and bring peace and love all around me,even though it doesn't seem to work and it makes me angry inside :( the way the world is and selfish people are and angry, i am always thinking about others before my self constantly, of thier feelings or wellbeing exc.I am an earth angel I have all the sign to a T i have a very beautiful heart shaped face and have a baby face and even look like an angle I am very gentle person Mostly and very sensitive person.

Hi! So what is your "huge*" purpose? welcome to you :-)

Hi :) thank you. My mission I know
Is to help people. I love to help people, i know it is this but bigger, and I will impact alot of people,I always get this vision of going to countries where there are starving children and helping them and feeding them.

Great! I hope you will succed your mission!

I am having the same problem. I don't know why I can't find what I am looking for, it drives me nuts sometimes. I have a group of people who are angels and stuff. I don't know, I am different then them. I am always searching and running. I don't know why. I hope you find what you are looking for. I am trying to find a man myself.

The power within every SOUL to rise above its physical nature and material conditions.<br />
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Every living SOUL has wings and will in time learn to use them.<br />
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Peace on your journey to show your wings for all to see.

Hello friend! I am Taniel (Ton-iel)<br />
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I too started out like you! You just have to be patient, and believe me when I say that patience isn't my strong suit either. Many blessings on your journey!<br />
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Love and Light

You are a beautiful soul. :) God made you never more perfect than how you already are. And let me ask you something, my sweet friend...<br />
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Does it REALLY MATTER if you are "a regular human," an "IA," "Earth Angel," or what have you? Aren't you content with how special you are, and just being yourself? What is so wrong with just being you?? For you are you, and that is all that matters. It does not matter whether you are an IA, or what have you, from the spiritual realm. What is important, is what you do now with your life. Use your love, compassion, and other gifts for the greater good of yourself and for others. :)<br />
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You have a gorgeous soul, and please, oh please do not let anything ever taint it. :) I hope to hear more from you, and please keep me enlightened on your spiritual journey to finding YOURSELF. :)<br />
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Never stop being you, even when you do spiritually awaken. Never let it get to your ego, either. I have seen many who use it to belittle others because all of a sudden "they deem themselves better or higher than others and more blessed," when that is not true at all. Continue to love others as ye would love your family or thyself. Love all, and accept all. :)<br />
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I am here if you ever just want to talk. :)<br />
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In love, peace, and God's light,<br />
Crystal

Thank You Magdalene....i know patience is a little bit of work for me lol hahaha i feel lik ei have been waiting for answerssince the begginging of time lol....But thank you for yor comment and I agree wiht you.....Its really hard to beleive cuz there are so many diff people, diff experiences, and maybe som epoeple who just want to make crazp up lol but what i do is what i have always done and that is follow my heart, and i trust in it and it guidess me...it got me this far and it is my most powerful tool...Thanks again : )