Life sucks, and then you die. At least, apparently to James Stark, the main character in Richard Kadrey's amazing book, Sandman Slim. Nonetheless though, Kadrey has a point. We all get stuck with the motions of life, and then it all comes to bite us in the ***.

With that being said, I've been busy lately. I haven't thought much about angels, I haven't meditated. I've preoccupied myself with life, with school, with boys, with friends. To be honest, I felt like I was at a standstill, but I didn't think that anything would ever be done about it. I was worried that I would be stuck forever.

But the other day I was smoking a Kerek, and I was thinking about it all for the first time in a long time. Stared up at the sky and realized the stars moved. Wanted to drown into the world that we can't see, the world that I think is far better than this one. And I realized that I needed to get back on the wagon again. I realized that I missed researching, I missed the feelings.

I'm rewriting my paper on Lucifer/Satan/Devil concept. I think it'll be even better than before. I think that it's a good start. I've also decided that I'm going to go to college for Philosophy, and teach something on it, the way by Big Brother does Mythology. I think that's a good start too.

I also feel like I've got to start researching again, for the Angels I love. For Anachel, and Abbadon, for my angelic mother and father--my gaurdians; my Big Brother and Sister. To figure out somethings for myself, and for who we are for each other. In fact, by researching, turns out that all the angels I've ever felt connected to were connected by the 5 Heaven. Sefriel, Rem,'s kinda confusing, in a lovely way.

Well, that's it. I just wanted to share. Say hi, spread some love, a little taint to counterbalance it all. So.

In the Compassion of the Father Above, and in the Mercilessness of The Adversary Below,

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1 Response May 23, 2012

Youre already an excellent teacher