Making Sense of My Life...
I am a 32 year old female, living in the USA.
I have always known I was NOT like others around me (traditional Christian). On my quest in this world and trying to be a part of it, I went in the direction of "New Age" or spiritual people, because my relationship with God has always been extreemly strong, it seemed like the next best place to look. The problem was even the spiritual people were stand offish, though I shared the same gifts and talents as them, they never really understood me.
So I went on about my life, knowing that I am here to lead and teach, and doing so as God sent those who needed me into my life. Occasionally, speicial people come through my life whom I know are guides sent to open doors in my mind. I learn and absorb as much from them as possible. Yet even those guides have not been able to answer the one question that has burned in my mind: "what am I?"
Until a few days ago when I met with a energy healer... who made a passing comment during my session that stuck about "earth angels".
The thought had never crossed my mind of being an angel, because I am not a sweet person, I am not even overly nice. I am actually rather harsh, and irritable a lot of the time. However, I teach... I teach everyone I come in contact with. I am also overly understanding, honest and considerate. I can't hate people because I KNOW them from the inside out, but their irrational thoughts irritate me.
I have a power in me that others feel and that I am just begining to understand. I have never felt limits or restraints. Fear is a guide of what I need to work on, not avoided. When told that something is not possible, I do, so that others after me can as well. I am the front line fighter that shows that all things are possible. It is God's power that allows me to be that person paving a way for others. I am just NOW begining to understand that it is my form of servitude to mankind.
It had never occured to me that light could be too pure for others, until I started thinking of it in terms of being an angel... my life started to make sense.