I Am An Infj
It's not really surprising that I'm INFJ. Found out this year from taking psychology class because I was interested in human behavior. Also thanks to Criminal Minds tv show :) Funny that it's one of the infj behavior to be observative of others, because that's why I was interested in learning more. From the fact that I set high standards, have little close friends, happens to understand people really well, and feel like I never really fit in, I wasn't surprised one bit. For some people, me included, I was quite intrigued and surprised that most of the information about infj is accurate. I thought it was because of my life experiences, but apparently I was like that all long. :/ huh...
I find that it's not always a great thing being unique...knowing that most people you meet on a daily basis is not infj. It's nice to have a variety, but still. Most of the time, even if I have lots of friends and we chill together, I feel like I don't fit in. There's just something about it...you try to see what's the problem, but you just can't find what's wrong. Don't get me wrong, it's not that bad. I don't really mind because most of the time I live in my head pondering about life and things that goes on in my head. Another thing is that you're cautious about who you're friends are and don't really trust people too well. Well, for me I've been let down many times, so it's just one of those things where you don't want to be disappointed and get hurt. Eh, there's nothing I can really do about it. Takes time. Most of the time, I feel lonely. Can't find a person to relate to, no one that'll understand what I'm going through and why I'm the way I am. Can't really talk to anyone because you don't have lots of people you trust and can just tell everything, and they don't understand. Frustrating. I find the best way to let it out is by writing. Just pour everything out; it's easier that way.
It's alright to be who you are. Nothing wrong. Just have to accept it and make the best out of it. Sometimes being too harsh on yourself isn't good. I know. Just makes life more depressing that it already is and makes you guilt-ridden too because of all the things you can't forgive yourself when you can easily forgive others. I forgive myself more often, and not dwell on it, compared to back then. Once you understand yourself better, you'll become more open and more...happy? I don't know, but I'm more relaxed and way more talkative and outgoing. Just tweaked a few standards here and there, now my life's...happier and chilled. Though it still frustrates me that I don't try really hard. Also, trying to strive for your goals, and not to please others is important. Honestly, most of my life I was like that (I haven't lived that long, but enough...) I tried to please others and always trying to do what they want, I suppose...It's not that fulfilling...Sometimes you get pressured into doing things you don't want, but that also contradicts what you want (pleasing them). Ugh. So, just know that you matter more. Follow your intuition and what you think is right... Now, I'm not telling people to live their lives a certain way, just proposing some ideas...
Half of the time, I feel older than my age...I never really felt like other kids understood the repercussions of the way they are and of their actions. Sometimes it's annoying to me, because I know what'll happen, yet they don't. Oh well. It's not like I always make the right choice, still teenager and growing..just more wiser than some. Just know that it's ok to lighten up a little, it's fine, and we're people: we make mistakes, don't always achieve our goals, and it's ok to forgive yourself for that. As you develop the traits and grow, becoming more aware of our nature as infj, life might just get easier and hopefully you'll make the best out of it.
I'm an infj, and always will be infj. It might be a gift or a burden, but it's the way you live your life that matters in the end. :) Normally I wouldn't write this...because of being private and keeping to myself. But hey, sometimes I don't want to keep it all in.
I find that it's not always a great thing being unique...knowing that most people you meet on a daily basis is not infj. It's nice to have a variety, but still. Most of the time, even if I have lots of friends and we chill together, I feel like I don't fit in. There's just something about it...you try to see what's the problem, but you just can't find what's wrong. Don't get me wrong, it's not that bad. I don't really mind because most of the time I live in my head pondering about life and things that goes on in my head. Another thing is that you're cautious about who you're friends are and don't really trust people too well. Well, for me I've been let down many times, so it's just one of those things where you don't want to be disappointed and get hurt. Eh, there's nothing I can really do about it. Takes time. Most of the time, I feel lonely. Can't find a person to relate to, no one that'll understand what I'm going through and why I'm the way I am. Can't really talk to anyone because you don't have lots of people you trust and can just tell everything, and they don't understand. Frustrating. I find the best way to let it out is by writing. Just pour everything out; it's easier that way.
It's alright to be who you are. Nothing wrong. Just have to accept it and make the best out of it. Sometimes being too harsh on yourself isn't good. I know. Just makes life more depressing that it already is and makes you guilt-ridden too because of all the things you can't forgive yourself when you can easily forgive others. I forgive myself more often, and not dwell on it, compared to back then. Once you understand yourself better, you'll become more open and more...happy? I don't know, but I'm more relaxed and way more talkative and outgoing. Just tweaked a few standards here and there, now my life's...happier and chilled. Though it still frustrates me that I don't try really hard. Also, trying to strive for your goals, and not to please others is important. Honestly, most of my life I was like that (I haven't lived that long, but enough...) I tried to please others and always trying to do what they want, I suppose...It's not that fulfilling...Sometimes you get pressured into doing things you don't want, but that also contradicts what you want (pleasing them). Ugh. So, just know that you matter more. Follow your intuition and what you think is right... Now, I'm not telling people to live their lives a certain way, just proposing some ideas...
Half of the time, I feel older than my age...I never really felt like other kids understood the repercussions of the way they are and of their actions. Sometimes it's annoying to me, because I know what'll happen, yet they don't. Oh well. It's not like I always make the right choice, still teenager and growing..just more wiser than some. Just know that it's ok to lighten up a little, it's fine, and we're people: we make mistakes, don't always achieve our goals, and it's ok to forgive yourself for that. As you develop the traits and grow, becoming more aware of our nature as infj, life might just get easier and hopefully you'll make the best out of it.
I'm an infj, and always will be infj. It might be a gift or a burden, but it's the way you live your life that matters in the end. :) Normally I wouldn't write this...because of being private and keeping to myself. But hey, sometimes I don't want to keep it all in.
By:
Obsidiann
Age:
16-17
,
Female
