My Current Life As An InfjI took the MBTI for the first time about a week ago, resulting in me being an INFJ.
A few months ago I started my first semester at Washington State University - Vancouver, having had already gotten my associates degree from Lower Columbia College I felt confident in my decision to major in Mechanical Engineering, I figured it would be the practical thing to do. I'm decent with math, I don't particularly enjoy it, but I can tolerate it more than most, and I like problem solving. A few weeks ago I ended up in the hospital with a severe kidney infection (The doctors couldn’t find a reason, which makes sense to me because I know that when I’m stressed or anxious for a few weeks at a time I get adrenal problems usually with my kidneys). I was in the hospital for about 5 days and had a lot of time to think.
I thought about how every time people would ask me, "Why mechanical engineering?" I wouldn't have much of a reason, I would just kind of say I could tolerate math and liked problem solving. Now when I think about Psychology, I have a whole list of reasons I would like to do that. I’m extremely interested in the subject, and I feel I have a lot of skills that are great for this. I have a ton, if not too much empathy and compassion for people, I'm good with seeing multiple perspectives and being able to foresee how things might turn out. (Probably due to my narcissistic, and extremely dysfunctional family life I could probably write another few thousands words about) I'm a great listener and do well with one on one or small group interactions, which would be what type of environment I would be in as a psychologist or counselor.
I started taking aptitude tests, which led to the MBTI. I took several versions, all of which turned out INFJ. As I read the personality desc
I've been with my INTJ boyfriend for over 4 years now. We have issues with him being critical and it making me feel like he's just slamming me deeper and deeper into the ground, but now I know it's not just me, and that it's not just that he's being a jerk, that's just a personality trait he has, and that it's just my personality to be extra sensitive to criticism. It's always drove me crazy if I feel someone got the wrong impression of me, or if I felt I said that wrong thing and might have offended someone. I would replay scenes from throughout the day in my mind over and over thinking of what I should or could have done instead. I've always felt this disconnect between what was going on in my mind, where everything made sense, but then once I would try to bring it to the physical world the ideas and my attempts at communicating them just crumbled.
I'm a complete introvert, as much as I try to combat this never ending loneliness with making friends, it just feels like it's more effort than its worth. I’m always there for other people, but once it comes to talking about myself I always feel like I have to simplify my thoughts, I don't want to say "dumb things down", but that's almost what it's like. I just feel like I'm on a different level than the majority on just about everything, and that probably contributes to the loneliness I experience. In the back of my mind I've always had a major interest in Psychology, I took two psych classes for humanities credits at LCC and remembered really enjoying those. I've always known that I enjoy helping people; it's just what I do. If there is something I can do to help someone out I'll try to do it without a second thought. Almost to the point of it being unhealthy, I've started to realize that every single friendship I've made even since elementary school has been with someone who needed my help, or needed to be “fixed”. I still don't really know what to think of this realization, but I'm working on making friendships that might be a bit healthier for me.
I could go on and on, but I think I'll stop here. Tell me if you have similar experiences or any advice, I’m always open to (and would really like to) meeting new people, so message me if you like, or comment on here. Thanks for your time.