To Create Or Not to Create
As an INFJ, or just as a creative person-it seems my whole being has always been consumed with trying to get my ideas out of my head and into the world. I spent my whole 20's attempting to conquer the world of graphic design and advertising because I felt like I had to; I have always felt I had a gift to create and "do something" with it. Even now as a father and husband, I have continued on in my pursuit to get these ideas out and change something. But what? It just occurred to me the other day that I don't owe the world anything. I have two beautiful boys and a wife; They are healthy and lively, I have a house and a great job (as an operating officer, not even as a creative). I have been so consumed with my inner world and whats in my head for so long that I sometimes neglect my family and I hate that. But what can I do? I know I'll get the itch to create a comic ***** or to start a company, etc...And I don't want to take that time away from my kids. But I hope that making this decision to spend more time devoted to them doesn't suffocate me and make me a bitter old man one day. Oh well. I'll figure it out; It's just nice to realize that If I don't want to spend a ton of time alone in the dark scribbling ideas, sketching and generally alienating myself for days on end I don't have to. I can take my kids to a park. I'll just pour creativity into yardwork or building something for my boys.