Reading About the Infp Personality Changed My Outlook

It really did. I was always so conflicted inside about myself. My parents pushed me to be on stage a lot as a kid and teenager because I am musically gifted/inclined. They, like most people, assume that if you can sing and play an instrument it must be that it's your passion and it's what you want to do with your life. Well, it never was. But I was always on stage (and secretely having anxiety attacks backstage) and I was always pushed to the front of the class (secretely having panic attacks and throwing up in the school bathroom.) I have a bubbly and warm personality (I'm told) and people tend to gravitate toward me. In my early EARLY twenties I was referred to as the "party starter". Everyone knew if they were going out with me, they'd have a good time. But still, this wasn't me. It was just the me I thought I was supposed to be. The me I had be "trained" to be.

I still dealt with the issue of "me" and who I really was up until about 6 months ago when I came across one of those tests that tells you what your type is. And when I got my results and read about the INFP personality, I actually started to cry. It was as if someone really understood what I was going through. I used to think I was weird for lying about being sick just so I didn't have to go out partying with friends. I thought I was weird for being such a home body. I thought I was weird for preferring quiet alone time, to being in a crowd of people. But reading the INFP awakened something in me. I'm not ashamed of who I really am anymore. I've embraced it. And slowly I've been able to reach out to my friends and family about who I really am and show them the real me...not just the me I thought I was supposed to be...the me I was always meant to be.

PlaiduhPus PlaiduhPus
22-25, F
1 Response May 15, 2009

Finding out about my personality type as well as my friends and family's type has had a huge impact in my life as well. It explains so much about me. It helps me to accept my weaknesses and appreciate my strengths. It gives me direction on how to improve on my weaknesses but with the realization that I will never be what I thought I should be. I'm a mix of INFP and ISFP. This also explains why I have trouble relating to some members of my family and why I get along so well with certain friends. It's so interesting and I'm looking forward to this fall when I'm taking Personality Theory in college. I can't get enough of it. I've also found that since I have major social anxiety, learning about the different types has helped ease some of that anxiety. I don't avoid people as much as I use to in the past. I enjoy studying people and trying to figure out who they are. I then am able to know how to communicate with them or if I should avoid them entirely.<br />
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Glad to see it's helped you too!