The Lost One

My life began in a nice home with good parents, although they don't believe the same things that I do now. I grew up believing in only science, but always wondering about the mystical aspects of the universe. So naturally my interests were peeked in physics class, though the classes never met my expectations. I wanted to be learning the deep secrets of time and space, but instead I was calculating how fast a roller care would accelerate down a slope. Pitiful isn't it? I only had to grow up to see the beauty that was right out my door on a starry night. Now I've moved to the city and miss the stars bright twinkle on a summer's eve. Though, recently I decided living in the city didn't matter and went to the park at night with a blanket and sat out underneath the night sky and meditated. When I laid back and stared at the great veil of space, it almost felt as if I was there, floating in the vastness. It's these simple, yet brimming with beauty experiences that make life worthwhile.

I've always felt like an outcast really. Not that I haven't made friends in my time. I just can't seem to connect with people the way others do. Maybe it's a lack of attention span, I don't know. That seems like it's my problem though. My guess is most old souls can sit in a restaurant and feel easy. I get overwhelmed, and close up. It's not that I'm afraid to say anything, it's just that there doesn't seem to be anything much I'd like to say. Though I try to entertain my friends. When I go to a party I just don't have the bubbling conversational attitude, so I just try to listen and enjoy myself.

Recently I bought a tablet and I'm enjoying the great repertoire of e-books available on kindle. My greatest goal for now would be to find my soul mate. That's what would bring joy in my life. Someone to share every wonderful moment with. Someone that looks at me and says, I know you. And the feeling will be mutual. That's what I'm hoping for, I'm just not sure if it's going to happen. Oh well. Life goes on I guess. Good luck to all!
MichaelJTC MichaelJTC
22-25, M
1 Response Sep 16, 2012

Yeah I know the feeling except in my case I'm litterly a out cast. Well good luck on your search.