I, Too, Am Different . . .

I feel weird writing this because it's not something I ever speak about because most people act like I'm crazy when I do. Throughout my life (currently 33), I have always felt different from other people. It seems like my thoughts run on a much deeper level than everyone else in my life and truthfully, it's super frustrating and lonely. This is my story:

I grew up in a good home with parents who loved me and took good care of me and my siblings. My older sister is very much a young soul and I believe my older brother is probably a mature soul. I, on the other hand, am probably about as old as they come. When I was 16, I met and feel in love with a boy who I now know was 100% my soulmate. I will never forget the way our conversations flowed. We broke up when I was 18 and seven years passed before I spoke to him again, but absolutely nothing had changed in our ability to communicate. I've yet to find that level of comfort with another person. I find it extremely difficult to connect with people my own age. However, I have a keen ability to understand old people and animals.

I also have a strong intuition when it comes to an individual's true character and I am constantly watching people "from the balcony". My true calling in life is to help people succeed and I feel happy in that role, I just wish more people would listen. I have extremely vivid dreams that in some sense often come true, although not always (which I'm thankful for). I can also daydream for hours on end if only the rat race world would let me have my bliss.

This is where is gets weird for me. I am fascinated by the WWII time era, specifically the holocaust. It's like I can't get enough information on it. I even feel different inside when I'm thinking about it, but I'm not sure how to describe it either.

So, that's me in a nutshell.
mmiller0415 mmiller0415
31-35, F
1 Response Nov 11, 2012

hi, thank you for sharing your experiences..i feel like me sometimes..