I was born on the Aquarius/ Pisces cusp, for those that follow Astrology. Crossdressing came from within me; no one showed me or abused me. I was between 5 and 7 years old. Never liked fist fights, sports or gym… never was any good at any of them. Though my father forced me to fight a bully from up the street, we both did the same amount of damage so I guess I could fight if I had to. My first remembrance was wearing my mother’s wedding gown; to this day I still love that style. Probably why I like and own renaissance gowns that I wear on our property. I also fell in love with my mother’s friends thick fur coat that she left with her as a “security deposit” when borrowing money from my mother. You haven’t lived till you’ve been smothered in a thick fox fur. Nowadays, they are next to impossible to find as for the way the fur industry has declined due to animal cruelty.
I’ve been closeted all my life; I was just starting to break out of the closet a bit when I FINALLY met my soul-mate/wife. She loves me for who I am, I told here on the second date she was OK with it, but a bit worried about seeing me dressed. That took a few more dates. She told me afterwards she was a bit afraid I may look better than her (LOL), and was afraid that my second self might be Sybil-ish. She saw that I was the same person, just a lot more at ease. Now she loves when her girl friend “Amy” visits. We go on rides, picnics and mini vacations together, where I feel safe or can scramble past the hotel manager without being seen.
We both joined the local chapter of Tri-Ess, and this really helped me. I was at easy dressed and talking with others dressed. I don’t believe I need the “support” as much as help coming out… walking in public amongst the people. I added a credit card to my existing credit card in Amy’s name and order on line the things I want, a delivery of 2 beautiful wigs came today. My wife is constantly buying Amy gifts. Yesterday she got Amy a beautiful Pagan top and skirt & a pair of knee high black boots. She actually walked in and FOUND a size 13w women’s boot at Payless. I put her finds on then my new wig and the total style looks great.
I hope this group can bring us “older” crossdressers together.