Was Alone As Was Only Child..but Now All Alone In This Whole World :(

I AM 28 YR OLD GIRL.WAS LIL DEPRESSED,BROWSING DIFFERENT SITES AND CAME ACROSS THIS ONE....READ FEW GRIEVANCES..FELT LIKE SHARING MINE TOO:(,LITTLE LONG IT IS....WE WERE FAMILY OF 3.MY MOM DAD N ME..EVERYTHING WAS NORMAL AND HAPPY AS 1ST SHOCK CAME IN MY LIFE MY MOM GOT HEART ATTACK IN 2008 WHOM I WAS SOOOO CLOSE TOO..NEVER WENT TO A HOSPITAL EVEN BEFORE THAT AND SUDDENLY WAS HANDLING THE COMPLICATIONS OF C.C.U WITH MY FATHER.SHE STAYED 2 DAYS IN HOSPITAL UNDERGOING DIFFRENT TREATMENTS OF THE CORONARY ARTERY DISEASE....AND TO OUR GRIEVANCE SHE UNDERWENT ANGIOGRAPHY SOON AFTER WHICH SHE WAS GIVEN BREAD AND BUTTER TO EAT BY A NURSE TO WHOM AS BEING HEART ATTACK PATIENT OIL LESS FOOD WAS EVEN DIFFICULT TO DIGEST..THAT MADE HER CONDITION MORE WORSE..WENT ON VENTILATOR FOR A DAY NEXT DAY GOT ANOTHER MAJOR ATTACK WHICH SHE COULD NOT SUSTAINED.......I WAS BLANK..............WANTED TO GO AWAY WITH MY MOTHER..MAJOR TRAGEDY OF MY LIFE..JUST SUSTAINED FOR MY FATHER.....BUT BAD LUCK MET US AGAIN..IN 2010 WHEN MY FATHER WENT NASAL POLYP SURGERY..AT TIME HE WAS OPERATED THOUGHT EVERYTHING WENT WELL..BUT SOON AFTER SYMPTOMS AROUSED SOMETHING WENT WRONG....WITHIN A PERIOD OF 6 MONTHS..HE SUFFERED FROM SEVERAL ILLNESSES WHICH HE NEVER HAD....THEN 16 DAYS ON VENTILATOR....TOTALLY SEDATED..STRUGGLING WITH LIFE..THOUROUGH GENTLEMAN HE WAS..BEFORE THIS..ON VENTILATOR ALSO IN TOTAL SEDUCTION WHEN I ASKED HOW ARE YOU PAPA HE BENT HIS HEAD IN YES....THAT MEANS IM FINE..CONDITIONS WORSENED HE TOO DID NOT SUCCEEDED TO WIN BATTLE WITH LIFE...AND THE REASON WAS HE GOT (INFECTION BY THAT SURGERY)WHICH DOCTORS KEPT ON HIDING FROM US........AND SINCE THEN IM STRUGGLING FOR LIFE....LIVING..BUT ALONE..........WHAT TO SAY MORE.....U ALL HERE UNDERSTAND VERY WELL THE MEANING OF BEING ALONE.PEOPLE SAY TIME HEALS BUT TO ME IT MAKES IT WORSE AND I HAVE A HARDER TIME DEALING WITH IT NOW THAT BOTH MY PARENTS ARENT HERE. I MISS THEM SO MUCH AND ITS JUST UNEXPLAINABLE. THE HURT I GO THROUGH DAY IN AND DAY OUT. I JUST DONT CARE ANYMORE ABOUT ANYTHING .I LOST THEM..BECOZ OF MISHAPPENINGS..BUT I HAVE TO LIVE WITH THAT FOR REST OF MY LIFE.................:( :( :( :( :(
diya243 diya243
26-30, F
2 Responses Dec 5, 2012

I'm here for you

Don't think you are alone...just have faith to our God.. I have a situation right now where my mom is sick where she need to have a dialysis twice a week and need a surgery to remove a stone in gallbladder, last night I cried harder and kept asking why is it happening to my mom..I was away with my mom right now, where I need to work here because of her..have faith and be strong... this is the only thing we need to do...Godbless