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I Am An Open Book On Ep, But Very Reserved In Real Life

Very Reserved In Person~

By: hillbillycrone
Written on May 27th, 2012


The title of this group says it all. I generally post real photos on EP, most of them are showing my face, often I change photos daily, deleting yesterday’s pics and adding today's offering. My stories and poems are largely nonfiction. I am as open as I know how to be about everything including very personal things like my modest finances, my spirituality, my liberal politics, right down to the details of my sweet "mature" marriage. I am an open book~

In real life, I am open and I make no apologies for who I am, but, in my truest heart, I have to admit that I am not a people person and generally trust and "attach" myself to animals far more than people. My "in the flesh" friends....I can count on one hand and most of them I have known since I was a small child. My reasoning is varied, generally speaking my experience with human beings is that most are not authentic and many are eager to cram me into a box so that I fit into their idea of "normal" I hope that I am never, "normal." In crowds, I am sensitive to people's energy, sometimes I don't "like" what I feel when I am near certain humans. I enjoy being alone or alone with my husband, family, and pets here on the hill.

My EP friends are very precious to me, their true souls shine through their stories and I am comforted by their company. I try to keep my circle intimate and I try to choose wisely who I add and do not add here. 
By: hillbillycrone
Age: 51-55 , Female
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  • AlmostAristotle
    AlmostAristotle

    The last paragraph of this post really struck a chord with me.

    I keep my circle of friends on EP. to twenty. That's as many as I feel I can keep track of in a meaningful way, and I have no time for meaningless chatter, if I was after that I would go to facebook.

    I have written a story about how I have been trying to fill those twenty places with cherished communicative friends for at least a year now.

    I sometimes think that men have more difficulty attracting the EP. diamonds. Which is not surprising when you consider how the majority of men conduct themselves when online.

    I am so grateful that I have you in my circle, along with little more than a handful of others you have lit up my EP. experience recently.

    Thanks Ari.

    May 28, 2012
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    • hillbillycrone
      hillbillycrone

      Bless you for being my friend, you are an EP diamond Ari! I hope this day finds you smiling.

      May 29, 2012
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  • Jenni855
    Jenni855

    I am similar to you in some ways. I do enjoy the company of others but like yourself, find most people to be less then true.

    I am a person who needs my alone time and who is definitely reserved. I find it very easy to be open on EP partly because I bottle everything up and can't talk to anyone about it in person. I have written so many stories and blog entries here, all these repressed feelings and thoughts just come flooding out. I can also understand your attachment to animals. There is something about their loyalty and unconditional love that is rare to find in other humans.



    I am proud to know you and be a part of your friends circle here.Like you, my circle is also small as I prefer it that way.

    You help me to feel better about myself and I find myself thinking about you often throughout the day.



    xxxx

    May 28, 2012
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    • hillbillycrone
      hillbillycrone

      Oh Jenni, thank you honey, I think of you often throughout the day as well. I always hope that you are having a nice happy day~ xxxx Thanks for being my friend Jenni~

      May 28, 2012
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  • charmingpurple
    charmingpurple

    I'm not very thrilled to be in crowd, too. I often feeling drained, I sort of can guess what is going on people's mind, and I often find on those minds are...not so pretty. So I try to keep the exposure at minimum :D

    And by the way Hilly, you definitely are an open book, a very interisting one ;)

    May 27, 2012
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    • hillbillycrone
      hillbillycrone

      I thank you dear one, I adore your posts and your comments, I feel your warmth and your cheer with every word! Hugs and Care Always. xx

      May 28, 2012
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  • kayblue
    kayblue

    i feel the same~ hugs....

    May 27, 2012
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    • hillbillycrone
      hillbillycrone

      Hugs to you my EP daughter, you are a doll~ you make my heart smile.

      May 28, 2012
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  • AutumnSwan
    AutumnSwan

    I don't know what to say other than you wrote my story. I'm reserved; some consider me aloof, but nothing can be further from the truth. While I can't say I'm an open book, I am an open pamphlet on EP.



    My circle on EP consist of those I want to know better, and I couldn't do that with 50, 100, 200, or 500 friends; it's impossible.



    It's wonderful to have you in my circle and have enjoyed what you have shared about your life.



    Blessings~

    May 27, 2012
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    • hillbillycrone
      hillbillycrone

      ~ I think you are a rare and wondrous jewel~I am grateful for your friendship. You bless my life. xx

      May 28, 2012
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