Truly An Orphan At 18 Yrs Old.

I am a 22 yr. old. woman. My mom died of Leukemia when I was 18. She was a single mother and I am an only child. I met my dad when I was 6, but in reality I dont remember anything about him. I never saw him after that. Truly I dont know if he is alive or dead. I have to admit it, I am curious about his whereabouts.

I miss her so much. I dont know what to do. I feel extremely empty and alone. Sometimes I wish I could go with her. I wonder where she is? I wonder if heaven exist? I really want to know if I will ever see her again.

Its been 4 years sense she past away, but it seems like it was yesterday. I was listening to her heart beat slowly untill I could not hear it no more. I was there in shock, in a dream,  in reality untill she disapeared.

I love you mom...

I want to be strong but, I feel sometimes that I am nothing without you..

My mother and me were extremely close to each other. She was my best friend, sister, hommie, my father and mom. The only truly love OF MY LIFE.

She died on Feb 12, 2006. I am still alive, living for her.

In your memory I want to tell you that, I am ok mom.  Te amo... and Gracias for giving me Life!...



mariel356707 mariel356707
1 Response Jan 12, 2010

Oh Mariel, that's so rough!! So hard!! To loose someone you love is the worst, but to never have had them...that would truly be tragic. I can tell by the way you talk that you will survive. I can tell, even if you can't, that this woman taught you more than you realize. Live your life like she is watching you; waiting to hear you laugh, waiting to see you love, waiting to see you dance and smile. That is what she sounds like through your words. Make her proud.