What Am I Doing Wrong?
I am in grad school, but I didn't come right out of undergrad. I'm also just kind of an awkward person sometimes, and I can't think of things to say to people. I never used to be like that! I always used to be funny and talkative and everyone would come talk to me all the time, but now... idk, I just lost it? Plus I'm in a totally new place with totally different people, so its hard to fit in. I definitely don't. I was happy last week b/c a girl who's 'popular' in the sense that grad schoolers can be went with me to grab a beer after class. We talked, and it was fun! She told me this secret story about her life, and b/c of the beer, or b/c she just realized nobody else in class talks to me really, she trusted me with it. Today, I said this very generic line from the story she told me, just in a funny way when I greeted her, and she was on her own, not in a group of people who would've inquired about it. She turned bright red and got close to me and said, "personal life canNOT be talked about in school." and before I could finish my quick apology, she turned and stormed away. So my chance at a social life was definitely blown. I once again feel like a complete pariah. I even found out today that one girl who always makes a fool of herself in class and is pretty obnoxious (I'm quiet - never really stand out) actually is invited out drinking w/ everyone all the time. I have no idea what happens outside of class, and even if I was invited, I never really know what do to once I return to class the next day. How does everyone else just know how to act? idk, but my lack of knowledge in this area is completely costing me a social life, and I'm such a social person that this is really bothering me. Does anyone have any advice? I really am reaching out here for advice other than 'don't worry about it.' Thanks guys :>