I'm Angry At Myself Too

I too am angry with myself....

I fell in love with a man who took advantage of me. I too saw the red flags, but chose to ignore them, and I kept giving him the benefit of the doubt.

After 2 months of dating, he said he loved me, wanted to be with me forever, and I found out he was a cheat and a liar, which led me to believe that everything he was about was a lie. The other woman contacted me and I later found out, according to her, he was only on match.com to find a green card marriage (which is where we met). I also later found out he saw us both on Valentine's Day. How many more woman was he manipulating....? I don't know...

So, in my rage, I saw he was on match.com on a daily basis, when he flat out lied to my face and said, "I haven't been on there in a while" and "I'm going to cancel my account", "all I want is you"...BS!

I was so angry at him, I wrote a hateful email to him, on match itself, to show him he was caught. I was vulgar and nasty, which is totally unlike me. 3 days later...I received an email from match.com saying I wrote an inappropriate email, and this type of behavior was unacceptable.  I think he tried to report me, and is now trying to get me kicked off of match. I had started as an active member on the site again, looking for the "1", but because of my anger getting out of control, I may have been kicked off of the site!!  

I don't know what came over me. This was so unlike me.  He hurt me so much, manipulated me and played with my emotions. He even met my parents a couple of weeks ago! Ugh....time to move on.

selfhealing23 selfhealing23
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3 Responses Mar 18, 2009

girl this is d cry of man y woman dont be hard on u ...u trusted ...heed the signs

when life kicks you...let it kick you forward

hey ur only human<br />
dont be so hard on ur self<br />
but do learn form this ok <br />
forgive your self,<br />
there are alot of users out there and he conned you <br />
but there are good men out there but theres a bunch of weeds too