Never Enough

My mother and I have a history of butting heads, and it gets ugly. My dad only steps in when he thinks one of us is getting REALLY out of line...and usually, he defends me, not my mother. This ****** her off to no end. She thinks that we gang up on her because I'm a "daddy's little girl" and we like to see her as a bad guy who is easy to blame.

She also tends to say hurtful things to people (not just my father and I, this includes my half sister, my niece and nephew and even my grandparents), and she doesn't realize the power of her words. She can cut into people like a dagger and just go about her merry way, not thinking twice about what she has done. She lashes out with vengeance, and it takes all my will power not to lash back at her. Mom and I have never come to blows, but one of us usually takes off in our car and is gone for the rest of the day. Last time it happened I spent all day with my adopted brother and partied my blues away. But I can't do that every time we fight, and I don't. I'm sick of the whole sick cycle carousel.

I just needed to vent about it, my best friend is in class so I can't text her about it yet :)
iamrae22 iamrae22
22-25, F
Nov 27, 2012