My fiance hates when I get into these funks, these mood swings. I can't talk to him about it anymore. I'm angry because of all the men who have ****** me up in the head.

I think he thinks that since I'm with him now all my pain is gone. Its not true. I love him that is true but I don't think I'll ever let go of what these people have done to me. Even though I love him, my dad is still dead, my mom still doesn't care about me, her boyfriends still raped me of my childhood, my kid's dad still beat me and left me after he got me pregnant, I still cut, and I'm still alone.

I wish he understood me. I don't want to be angry. I want to talk to him. I want him to be a magic cure all for my problems.  Until then I have to confide here to strangers.

Avamia Avamia
22-25, F
Mar 20, 2009