Feeling Alone.....

*take deep breath n writes*

....i feel alone..i really need to talk to someone who REALLY knows how is to be anorexic...not someone who ll tell me u r thinking all bout ur weight etc..I wont take any advise bout losing weight though..i just really need to talk to someone from this group..if anyone wants a friend..

i tried to pm some ppl here but im mostly blocked-maybe coz of age?

*sigh*
i wouldnt come to this group again but i joined again..i guess anyone from this group can understand..


amysangels amysangels
22-25, F
8 Responses Aug 12, 2010

You guys are all really strong people. I'm still fighting as well, but I don't want to be this way.But if you stay strong and don't give up, you can make it. You need a friend Im on alot to talk. Best of luck.

Amy, <br />
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You might well imagine that I struggle with my body image also.<br />
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Not only am I trans so I feel like it's the wrong sex, I am also morbidly obese. When I look in a mirror, I think I am fat. I am.<br />
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I don't envy your struggle. No doubt body image is a big challenge for both of us...but I would rather be stuck with my problems because it's safer in the short term.<br />
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I'm fat because I hated my body because I couldn't come to acceptance of myself. I naturally developed breasts when I hit puberty and then I hid it by getting fat. I looked in the mirror and liked the breasts God gave me, I saw the woman I was becoming but I was ashamed and when I went to school I was teased. I hated that. <br />
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In essence I was taught to hate myself. Once I hated myself enough, I stopped doing the things that kept me at a decent body weight. Pretty soon I was fat....and then I wasn't teased. Fat males can have breasts, it's normal...and so it has been ever since...and I didn't much care, until I did.<br />
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I bought so many lies that the world holds as truths that hating myself was the logical conclusion.<br />
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What lies has the world sold you that you would risk your health and life to be thin? Have you thought about it? <br />
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You are surrounded by people who care trying to help you because they see you need it. You know you need help too and I applaud you for seeking it. <br />
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What is behind the anorexia? <br />
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I know you, on a purely logical level, can look at a weight chart and look at your height and see where you should be. You might even know that a little extra weight from fat can be a very healthy thing...but just a little extra, not like me. <br />
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That's all logic and you are smart...so I know you can and probably have done that. The lord knows I have....for myself.<br />
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You are such a sweet young woman, you can do amazing things in this world with a heart like yours. Don't give up, you can win...if you can learn the lies you bought and overcome them.<br />
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*hugs* be strong :)

I'm a survivor. Nearly died when I was 21. I remember the night I turned around. I was feeling very ill and prayed to die, but I promised myself that if I would be alive in the morning it meant I had a purpose in life. Up to that point I was lost, seeking perfection, killing myself slowly. My mother was a bully and couldn't care less of I died. Her only concern was, "what will the neighbors think. They are already talking about you being so thin. Why don't you just drop dead and get it over with." <br />
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Well, I'm still here, more than thirty years later. After returning to school, gaining allot of weight (I'm overweight at the moment, but I don't care). I started my own successful business have two beautiful children, wonderful husband, million dollar home, Mercedes (2) in the driveway. Everything paid.<br />
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The secret...meditation, yoga, and lots of Vitamin B complex. The vitamins kicked in about 2 or 3 months after I started taking them. I have an I.Q. of 145, which puts me in the 'almost crazy' category. I don't waste my time with idiots and I speak my mind now. I figure if I survived my childhood, with my crazy mother, I could survive anything. <br />
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Start taking Vitamin B (with C) complex, available over the counter at any pharmacy and start eating a litte more protein. If you have problems swallowing, ask the pharmacist if it is availabe in liquid form. When you feel strong enough do stretch yoga exercises and meditate. You'll see your energy and self worth will increase. Best of luck and keep us posted with your progress.<br />
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P.S. contrary to anything my mother taught me, I do at least one good deed a day. I smile at strangers, say hello to all my neighbors, give compliments when people look down. I also do allot of pro-bono work for people who couldn't otherwise use my services and have reached a point where I can actually pick and choose the customers I want to work for. It feels good to be myself and not care what anyone says. Feel free to be yourself!

i promise..

thanks for not getting angry with me

thank u hel4u..but do u really believe this will stop...idk....<br />
hugs

hi bobby..im sorry.....u know what is ironic somehow?to want to not live with it..but also to cant live without it..hm...<br />
hugs*u tried getting help?

amysangels<br />
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I am a 39 year old man. I have been suffering with this disease for many years. I have never beaten it. Its just as difficult for me, as most people my age dont take me seriously. But everyday That I wake up, I fight this. Its horrible.