Struggling Through Binging And Purging :(

I've recently been attempting to recover from my anorexia, but over the past week and a half I have been binging on thousands of calories a day, followed by purging. I know how dangerous this is, but I feel all the negative emotions that I've been pushing down in the box are overflowing now, and I can't control them anymore. It's hell, and today has been no exception. It's sad that a 4,000 calorie binge is a small binge for me, but it is. I feel like this week my anorexia has just switched to bulimia. I'm trying so hard, but I can't seem to take any control. Does anyone feel the same way?
LittleMonster1011 LittleMonster1011
18-21, F
Feb 11, 2012