Since I Was 11

Yes, I have been anorexic since I was 11 years old. Its all about the control for me, it isnt about my image at all. Its just me being able to control at least one damn thing in my life.

I am 5 foot and I weigh 90 pounds, my 13 year old niece weighs more than me, and is even in a bigger size than me. I have to wear kid clothes, because I cant fit in adult clothes. I can honestly say that I love ana, it has always been there for me and always will be. Its a life long struggle, it isnt like people dont notice that I do not eat, it is just the fact that I am called horrid names because of it.

I am unsure why my disorder developed, but maybe that is what I need to find out to maybe be free from this disorder. I know it is slowly killing me, I am not ready to die, but I cant seem to let go of my precious friend ana.
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18-21, F
Nov 25, 2012