Anorexia Nervosa

Anorexia Nervosa. A mental illness. No-one seems to get how complex this really is. I'm a 14 year old girl, going through anorexia for the second time in 2 years, I've been trying to find a way to share my story with people who have gone through similar situations to me. I hate how it is, I never knew how vital food was until this complete struggle. I first went through Anorexia when I was just 13, I had a hard few years and I couldn't handle it I guess, food just grew further away from me, why did I need it? I was completely fine... I started losing weight, beginning to get thinner and thinner, I liked the idea of being skinny. My mum started to realize the weight was just falling off my bones, and got me to the doctors. I was diagnosed with borderline Anorexia. My liver had start to fail, my body was crying for food. I had medication and was a month away from being hospitalized. I managed to get through it with support from close family and friends. I was fine for the next few years until recently. I stopped eating, I'm not happy, of course I'm not, I hate school, I've been through so much personal stuff, I hate everything. I've stopped eating again, this time I'm sure it's coming worse. It's become clear to me how Anorexia Nervosa is a mental illness. Your brain is stronger than you realize, I'm not strong enough to fight my brain. I have a low self-esteem, I hate the way I look. Media killed beauty, and so did society. So many teenage girls put themselves down, and so many girls die because of this, this shouldn't be happen to anyone. Anorexia is a slow suicide and there's nothing I hate more than looking in the mirror and knowing I'm getting skinnier and skinnier and ruining myself. I recently went to the doctors for the second time. I'm getting more medication, counseling and a dietician. I've had amazing support from my best friend, friends, boyfriend, and of course my family. I'm so grateful for what they've done for me and the support they've given me, I don't know what I'd do without them. But girls have to stick together, everyone can get through this, we need to support each other, Anorexia Nervosa, will be overcome with the right help. I promise.
mediakilledbeauty98 mediakilledbeauty98
13-15
1 Response Nov 27, 2012

I'm also a fourteen year-old girl. I have just started two months ago on my Anorexia. Mine is not helped at all by my depression. That's why I started not eating. Since then I've seen the pounds go away, and realized how much I like it.

Same. I started counselling a few days ago.. Message me if you like :)