Anorexic Due To Bullying

I remember the summer after I graduated 8th grade I was so excited to start high school. I thought it was going to be great, boy was I wrong! Immediately I started getting bullied so I started to get depressed. The more depressed I got the less I would eat. It got to the point where I went to the school library daily to avoid having to eat lunch and the bullies. After about 3 horrible weeks my mom became fed up with my anorexic behavior and took me to the doctor, where I was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa. From there I was sent to a phyciatric hospital and admitted onto their floor for eating disorders. It was awful I was so homesick and it wasn't helping my anxiety and depression. At the hospital they made me eat 4,000 calories daily. This horrified me, keep in mind I'm only a 15 year old girl. Also, they yelled at you everytime you stood up or moved in the slightest way. You couldn't go to the bathroom until 1 after each meal and when you could go, you had to leave the door cracked with a staff member standing nearby. Same with the showers, a staff memner always jad to be within 3 feet watching you. It was terrible, but it motivated me to gain enough weight and kick this awful disease in the butt so I would mever have to go back there again. I went from 69 lbs to 119 lbs (I am 5'2). So they got me up to an abobe average weight, but the huge weight gain was only making my anciety and depression worse, so after I got discharhed from inpatient I git moved to outpatient where I still had to eat 4,000 calories a day and probably more since I got to go home 1 meal a day and my mom made me eat every bit of the food she made (example breakfast from my mom: 3 big chocolate donuts, a latte, hot chocolate, a peanutbutter covered banana, and raisins). I hated it but outpatient was helping me to accept that I will now be overweight,and that I wouldn't be allowed to exercise at all until at least 2 months after discharge. So yes, the treatmemt and weight gain really stinks, well this whole disease really stinks, but it gets better. If you gain enough your 1st time during treatmemt there is a much much stronger chance that you won't get a relapse. I am now still 15, 5'2, and now 130 lbs. I dealt with this awful disease and you can too. Anorexia is serious, and not enough people realize that it is a life threatening disease. But with the love and support from others you can kick it in the butt!
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1 Response Feb 6, 2013

Im also 15 & 5'2". I weigh 104 pounds and ive been anorexic for a year and a half. i think its amazing how you recovered. im hoping for recovery but i cant see it happening. Again, i really admire the fact that you recovered so quickly.

I am the girl who wrote this article, but I made a new account but its still me lol and anyway thank you! I think it is great that you want to recover, because in order to you have to want to. Let me tell you recovery is the best thing ever! Keep up the good work and you will acheive! I dont know your medical situation so I dont know how much you should gain but probably around 25 or 30 pounds. It will be hard, but it is worth it! Life is beautiful and I know realize that. And in order to recover you have to accept that being to skinny is ugly and healthy or slightly above is beautiful. Anorexia sucks and I wish you the best of luck in beating it. DO NOT give up, stay strong you are beautiful!