I'm Highly Addicted

Hey guys. I'd like to say I'm not Anorexic...But that would be a lie, I am. I'm 20 years old, 5'4, 118bls. I've been underweight by 20-25bls for most of my life, till I got my first job at Mcdonald's when I was about 15.  When I was 15 I was 110 to 115 probably, when I stop working there I was 17 and up to 155lbs. I was  really depressed about the whole thing.

About 2 years ago I was put on Adderall for my ADD. It's Helped me Lose alot all of weight in just a sort time and I'm Happy about loseing it but I just don't really see it to much tho. I walk / run about 6 to 8 miles a day just to make sure I wont gain anything back. I Put thos weight bands on my ankles when I got to the Doctors, so they wont take me off my adderall for loseing to much...I'm Addicted to Loseing weight and sadly because of all of this I'm highly addicted to Adderall now.

MorphineXxLipsxX MorphineXxLipsxX
18-21, F
8 Responses Oct 21, 2009

"Anorexia: An eating disorder characterized by markedly reduced appetite or total aversion to food. Anorexia is a serious psychological disorder. It is a condition that goes well beyond out-of-control dieting. The person with anorexia, most often a girl or young woman, initially begins dieting to lose weight. Over time, the weight loss becomes a sign of mastery and control. The drive to become thinner is thought to be secondary to concerns about control and fears relating to one's body. The individual continues the endless cycle of restrictive eating, often to a point close to starvation. This becomes an obsession and is similar to an addiction to a drug."

I'm 5'4" and 101 lbs. I am desperately trying to maintain that weight because if I lose more, my psychiatrist will be extremely unhappy. I am underweight, and I suffer the mental and physical effects of anorexia. BUT if you understand anorexia and the recovering process, it is not the weight the defines IF you are anorexic, but the psychological mental conditioning and control that demonstrate anorexic behaviors.

Please get help :( It is hard to be addicted to "Ana." It will tear you apart, inside out, and over and over again on repeat. I know it's hard, but try. One step at a time.......

Hello HighlyAddicted,
I am currently writing a Thesis on AN and am offering free 4 Kinesiology treatments for long term AN Sufferers. I am a student of Elizabeth Hughes.
I would only need permission from you and a lock of your hair sent to me via post to do these treatments. I would be happy to report via email or Phone/Skype on my findings if you would like to know them.
The goal of my Thesis is to prove that Kinesiology is an effective Treatment for AN when the conventional approach has failed. I aim to prove that Kinesiology can unlock and heal the underlying causes.
Thank you for considering this offer.
Kind Regards,
Jane McGarvey.
Sunshine Coast, Australia.

Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS) lists six non-exhaustive example presentations, including individuals who:<br />
[1]Meet all criteria for anorexia nervosa except have regular menstrual cycles<br />
Meet all criteria for anorexia nervosa except their weight falls within the normal range<br />
EDNOS is anorexic behavior without technically being extremely underweight.

um i'm 5'5 and 110 and I'm not thinenough to be medically classified as anorexic so neither are you at 5'4 and 118.

Uhhhh.... 5'4 and 118 isn't anorexic.... (Me) 5'5 and 84 pounds is....


I'm on Concerta... I take 72 mg everyday.. I know how you feel. >.

My adderall addiction has been a challenge also. It feels good to function again as everyone else does. To even process a thought feels amazing. I went from straight A's in college to mush brain until I started taking it recently. I feel like me. But I'm also an addict and abuse it. I just went two nights with no sleep yet. I have something going on this afternoon and when I'm done I'll crash, unless I choose to medicate myself through that too. I'll sleep some 19+ hrs and feel great when I rise. The thing is that I have poor health and I shouldn't be abusing my body like this. I've been ill for so long, years! It just feels good to feel good again.

The only thing I see is that your twenty and addicted to life ,stop being so concern in what you do and live life as other twenty something live . You're starting to sound like a forty something that despise life .