I Am Another Person Around My Hubby

I am actually quite goofy. Full of pointless info, and completely random. I love to sing and dance, and talk about weird things. ... But around my hubby I am calm, collected, I avoid doing anything I enjoy in his presence because... well.. I don't know. I guess maybe I am afraid he wont like me.???.. or if he'll think I'm crazy or something???? I don't care what people think of me (friends and acquaintances) I can be myself with people.... just not my hubby. Honestly, I don't know what I am afraid of. I don't blame him. This is my problem. I just don't know how to relax and be myself around him, what steps to take, what things I can do to reveal more about the real me to him.. but be comfortable as well. I really love him.
xFrostyx xFrostyx
26-30, F
1 Response Aug 4, 2010

Wonderful that you recognise that in yourself...now because of that you can fix it...<br />
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Be gentle with yourself when you look at how much you love him...coupled to that love is a fear of losing what you love....<br />
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The fix....is to love unconditionally...easy to say of course...but it is a process of teaching yourself to love yourself unconditionally first....<br />
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That is your first clue.... you are putting conditions on your love for him by restricting yourself around him in case he sees you in a negative light..which could lead to your loss of his love or his company or esteem...as you would want him to see you in the best light (according to your perception of what is acceptable to him)<br />
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This charade dis-empowers you....and only by changing your perception about yourself can you change that view... you could change it to something like you are very good and beautiful and a lovely person worth loving just as you are... the more authentic you become the lovable you become...<br />
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Look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself daily you are a loving person worthy of your own love..and when you believe that everyone around you will believe it too and it will overflow to others around you far and wide.....learn to love yourself and be thankful for the opportunity to be your own very best teacher...you are the best... :)<br />
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Love fixes everything... love and light are the same thing...<br />
Love daye