Antisocial

i have terrible problems with social contact. i cant even manage to talk to some of the people iv been friends with for years. and any time someone i dont know appraoches me, i freak out. its like, i cant even think anymore. and then everyone else goes around thinking im some super-arrogant crazy girl. for example: one time, i was at my school, and there was some random guy that said hi to me... and i completely froze, and i didnt know whether or not to say hi to him, cuz i wasnt even sure he was talking to me to begin with... and a little while later, one of my friends introduced me to him, and i was to shy to even talk to him after we'd been introduced. and now, im pretty sure he thinks i hate him or something. and i always end up feeling lonely and wonder why i dont ever go out and talk to anyone....
cheshirecat287 cheshirecat287
18-21, F
4 Responses May 30, 2007

I feel the same way you do. I am very anti-social. I tend to dismiss social events, and make up dumb excuses when I am invited to attend something. I know its bad because I used to be social. I don't like talking to people, and I don't like people too much. I know I have social anxiety, but I am still a shy person and I tend to avoid a lot of confrontations.

I found a solution to that. alcohol.

same with me :(<br><br />
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only it was even worse for me, because i actually was able to overcome it for a second and talk to a girl (im 19 and that was like the 2nd time in my life that i have EVER done that)<br><br />
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and then later she came and tried to start a conversation and i froze up and couldnt even say a word. couldnt even make eye contact :( on the inside i was screaming at myself, SAY SOMETHING DUMBASS!!!<br><br />
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but i couldnt :( i still see her around sometimes and i really wish i had gotten to know her, but im too embarassed to try talking to her again. she probably thinks im a weirdo. <br><br />
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and you know, i guess she would be right :(

Like Benjamin Mee once said, "it only takes 15 seconds of courage.

You're not alone. :) I'm the same way. People think I'm being rude because I'm so silent.