Intimacy Without Sex?I am female. I am not biologically asexual, but I am at heart. I liked the way people were when we were little. All my friends were guys, and we had so much fun all the time. We all knew what sex was and so forth, but we all considered it a stupid thing that decent people didn't even talk about. Then we got older and things started to change. The first sign that things were getting screwed up (pun intended) was that I wasn't alowed to have sleepovers with my guy friends anymore. Teen years: guys got weird. Little by little I discovered that we couldn't be friends like we used to be, and it was heart breaking.
The older I got and the more I discovered the way people reguard sex, the more I dissliked it. Damnit all, sex takes the joy out of everything! All my best friends used to be guys, but now if you don't want to screw around then you're useless to them, and even if there is a guy who isn't like that I still can't get close to him because of some kind of damn sexual barriers. When we were little we did everything for the joy of it, for the wonder of it, for the sheer thrill of life. Now everyone thinks sex is the reason for life. It's all very depressing and heartbreaking, which is why I avoid thinking about that kind of thing. Sex is no cause for celebration to me, yet I'm not biologically an asexual. Just at heart. I think I might start telling people I am asexual, since I find that to be a nobler state of mind.
The biggest problem for me is that I'm a really intimate person. I crave to have some kind of intimate relationship, and I love to touch. If it was a guy he wouldn't have to be asexual, but it sure wouldn't hurt. He would just need to be intimate. I love cuddles. And (dear God, please) could he just not be so obsessed with sex?
DOES ANYONE LIKE THIS EXIST!?
If it was a girl then it just wouldn't be a sexual relationship. I've had an intimate relationship with a female and I loved it. I could be happy with that, though I'm certain everyone would call us lesbians. I've gotten over that.
I'm not asexual, but I find sex to be petty and degrading (MOST of the time) and certainly not worth living for. Yet I crave intimacy.
World, is there anyone else like me?
Fireclaw 22-25, F 26 Responses 16 Jun 15, 2010