Sixteen And Possibly Asexual.

First off I am glad to find that other people are in the same boat as me its very reassuring that things will work out okay. Well heres my story. I know I am only 16 so I am not going to say I know for sure that I am asexual but there is a very high change. I have done sexual things in the past, but its been about a year and a half since anything has happened. To be honest now doing anything sexual with a man or woman is very re pulsing to me the thought of it freaks me out. I want love and I want a relationship but I do not want the sexual part of it. I love dating, movies, cuddling, holding hands fine. Anything more no thank you. This has ruined a lot of relationships for me because guys obviously want to do sexual things and I wont partake and i'm not interested in the least. I always shy away or regret people when they try to touch me or make a move and they just dont understand. I've never told anyone about this because I just recently found out what asexual was. I could never decide if I was straight or bi and when I read about asexuality I was like that basically describes me. I find guys/girls attractive, but I am not attracted to them. I am not even sure if I know what being sexually attracted to someone is like. Weirdly enough I find master*bation okay and I am not sure why that is. I am extremely glad to have found this website because I have been wondering why I have not been able to gather myself to do physical things with people and why I was so turned off. I never ever have the desire to just even make out. It honestly just freaks me out. I dont know why things have changed for me to make me like this. And I dont know if there is a way to make this go away? But I really do want to get married and have a happy future with someone I love so this is actually very scary to me.

So if you have any advice or you can relate to this please leave a comment or message me. I would love to hear from you. Thanks!