Growing Up In A Generation Growing Up Too Fast
I'm 16, a teenage girl, and most of my friends are no longer virgins. This really puzzles me. At no point in time have I even thought of having sex. The whole idea seems foreign; I've been thinking I must be a different species. Everyone around me seems focused on sex, while I'm focused on other things like my schoolwork, my hobbies, my art. I had a boyfriend who was a pig to say the least. He always wanted to make out with me, to touch me. It made me uncomfortable. I liked him, but I didn't like the physical contact that came with it. I'm now in a relationship with a girl and I'm in love with her. But I don't have any interest in having sex with her. My mother has tried to talk to me about it; I've been warned about STDs, but I assure them I'm just not interested. When I kiss my girlfriend, I don't really feel anything. Still, I know it's a sign of affection, that it's special and only I can kiss her, but I don't necessarily need it. I'm very rarely aroused, which is odd for someone my age whose hormones are running rampant. I thought maybe I'm just not ready for it, but now I'm starting to think it's something more. Sex disgusts me. When I see it on TV, I'm confused. What's the big deal? I don't need it. I don't want it. Will I ever? Who knows.