I Think I Am Asexual

 So I am not really sure but I think I am asexual. I am 18 years old and I have never had a boyfriend. And honestly, I pretend that I want one but I don't think i do. More than anything is I want a boy to like me to feel normal but they never do. I think it is the vibe I must give off or something. I am always jealous of girls that have perfect bodies and can flirt with guys so easily and get them.

 

So, then I started thinking "maybe I am a Lesbian." But I am pretty sure I am not because I don't want to do anything sexual with them either. I just honestly don't want to do anything.

I have made out with two boys before...one who was so good looking....but it was disgusting. Yes, i wanted him to like me and to dance close to me and hold me but I didn't want to kiss him or do anything else.

And, then in my college course the other day we watched a Pornographic video (it was for research lol)...but anyway I had never seen that kind of stuff before and I was repulsed...i literally thought I was going to puke. I had such a hard time watching it....so how could i ever do that stuff?

So I am thinking I am asexual. I have joked about it with my parents before but I honestly think so now.

I mean I still want a boyfriend and i want someone to hold me and snuggle with me and be affectionate and hold my hand and kiss me (but not make out)...but I don't want anything else

 

do you think I am just a late bloomer? Or does this sound like I am indeed asexual??

quiet25 quiet25
18-21
1 Response Mar 2, 2009

I feel the same way and i'm 47 i've always had a boyfriend during my teens right up untill mid 30s and not once have i had a good experiance with sex and the thought repulses me i have now been single for 10 yrs and have resigned myself to the fact that i must be asexual like you i thought i could be a lesbian but the thought of sex with a woman is just as repulsive as with a man, i did think at one stage that it was down to hormones but now i dont think so i think its just the way i'm built and i'm quite happy to accept it now!