Why Don't I Want It?
I don't want any sex. When I was young, I thought I would want to to have sex when I grew up, just like most people. Now, I isolate myself from everyone. Just like I always did. I was always ashamed to let anyone know me too well for fear of them knowing this about me. I've dated a bunch of times and even tried sex a few times. I hope that "finding that special someone" will be the key for me, because I don't ever want to just do it and end up disappointed again. Or maybe: How does one who doesn't want sex unlock this great pleasure that sex offers to others? It's in the mind, somewhere, I'm sure. I wish I could find it.
God, that sounds so pathetic!!