It SucksIt's hard to explain how it makes me feel-being asexual. It's lonely, not having anyone to talk about it because I can't bring myself to tell anyone. It shouldn't be embarrassing, but it is for me. Is it my fault that we live in a society where everyone is so quick to pass judgement on each other? No one I know could even understand how depressing it is to know that you'll never have a chance to be in a perfect relationship, because it's damn near impossible to find someone else that's also asexual and that you click with.
It's even harder knowing that you are going to have an arranged marriage, and even though you do get the last say, it's even more impossible to find someone like you in that type of situation. And when you marry you're going to be expected to have children, to make a family. I want so much to go through life without having to have sex ever, but it just can't happen. So often I sit there and wish I could find someone I get along with, someone asexual, and someone of my religion and culture and that everything could just fall into place. We would adopt children and we would never have to do the dirty, we'd live happily ever after. Do you know how much easier that would be?
As it is, being asexual is almost as bad as being gay. Not saying that I think being gay is bad, but from my family/religions point of view it is. And although being asexual isn't a sin, how do you explain to your parents that their eldest daughter doesn't want to have children. It just sucks, and sometimes I wish I could just want sex so that things could be easier.