Animals Have Ruined My House.

Hello! I am ashamed of my house, also. I moved in with my father to take care of him about 7 years ago. He lived alone and had several cats, which he did not clean up after at all. I have always been a bit of a slob, but since I moved in there I have gotten worse. Recently, my husband did a lot of work on the house because his band wanted to practice in our living room. I was very happy about this because he spent weeks cleaning up the house. There are still lots of problem areas, though. My worst moment came when the physical therapist who came to work with my Dad at the house called her supervisor because she said she couldn't stand the smell of our house. That was one of the worst moments of my life. I have never felt like such a worthless scum bag. I have also had people at work tell me that I smelled bad. The problem is that when you live with it you don't notice it after a while. When a supervisor spoke to me about my "hygiene issues", that was another of the worst moments of my life. Since then, I have made a lot of changes. I think that the house smells ok, and I always check everything before I wear it. However, the feelings of shame are still with me. I am so afraid that one of my husband's band mates will say something. No matter how much we clean now, I never feel comfortable with it. I guess it's because the other times that I got told about it I didn't think that it was that bad. It makes me feel like a bad person. I really hate feeling like this. I have lost my confidence. I also have problems with depression, and when the house was really bad that made it worse. Thank you for listening to my story. No one else knows all the things that have happened except my husband. Maybe telling it will help
moosie822 moosie822
36-40, F
2 Responses Jan 14, 2013

I too am ashamed if what my home has become. It was a brand new house 7 yrs ago when we moved in and now...well 2 cats and 2 dogs and things that have gotten let go due to my health problems, it needs a lot of work. I seem to worry about it tons more than the other 4 adults that live here with me. Of course I know they feel helpless too in knowing where and how to start such a huge project. We've got to hire some ppl for sure, it's just a
matter of getting passed this crazy winter were having this year. I welcome any other friends who feel like I do and have similar interests.

I feel your pain,i also have a house that being muck up by my dauther and her kids .