Afraid Of Discovery

I have been gaining weight my whole life to the point where I became completely disabled by my size several years ago, and since then the weight has come on even faster.  I never had any idea I would get this big.  I am sometimes so disgusted with being this big and other times I am just amazed by it.  I am deathly afraid of anyone seeing me like this.  I don't want to be one of those people on the talk shows but it could easily be me.  Whenever the front door opens I get a chill if I don't know who it is right away.  Some days I really wish I didn't have to hide from the world!

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3 Responses Nov 4, 2009

Can I ask what weight r u?

Hi how r u now I'd like to help u?

Do not ever hide who you are or be ashamed of yourself! Know that you can change what you don't like about yourself and know that you are strong enough to make those changes! I can help you on your journey and give you any motivation you need!