VeryAnd due to my shame at who I am, I am often afraid of letting other people get to me. I see myself as worthless, pathetic, undeserving, etc etc...
I'm often afraid that if I open up enough to people in real life and really allow people to get to know me, that they would see just how pathetic I really am too. That was the case many times.
I guess that's one of the reasons I have become so anti-social these past few months. Whenever I walk out in public or go anywhere, no matter who I'm with or if I'm alone, all I can feel is people looking at me, even strangers and thinking, "Wow, she's so pathetic... That pathetic girl... Etc, etc."
deadmoon 18-21, F 7 Responses 2 Sep 24, 2011