Ashamed Of Myself.

I've been married for four years to a wonderful guy. I love him but I feel in love with a friend. He doesn't live around here anymore and for months i've been having an emotional affair. It's gotten out of hand and today I told him i couldn't do it anymore, as much as I still want it to continue. Ive been upset all day at myself for letting this happen, for crying over something that never should have happened. I still want to be friends but I don't think it's possible. I think I'm just hoping or wishing things will change or maybe they will go back to how they were before with him.

I shouldn't be upset and i'm ashamed and have no where to turn.
foreveryoursnikki foreveryoursnikki
Jul 14, 2010