I Am Lost

i am living in hell. I want peace. i want someone to love me for real. i lost "motu" my puppy, she was the only one who has ever loved me for real. she was my God, i wish i could die so that i could be with her. my parents hate me, my fiance left me, my marriage is off. i am feeling crazy, i feel guilty for every **** thing. i am losing my dreams. i hate myself for being this helpless. and its getting worse and worse. i want God to save me from this or to kill me. God please forgive me if i did something wrong but get me out of this. this is hell. please do something please please
preieya preieya
22-25, F
Dec 7, 2012