I've Liked Girls Ever Since I Can Remember

Since I was a young girl I've had crushes on other girls, friends, neighbors other grade school girls.. while all the other girls were skipping and holding hands I was afraid to let them hold mine because I knew that they didn't feel the way I did. I got older, still liked girls, experimented a bit with friends but I still tried to be "normal". I didn't believe that there was anyone else out there like me so I got married and had two beautiful boys but I always felt as though something was missing until I met a girl at work that was bi she confronted me about liking girls so I just opened up for some reason and said yeah.. And it felt so great! So then I really started exploring my self learning more about myself and I came out to my husband, he was upset and mad, pretty much hated me made fun of me, for the sake of the boys I stayed and tried to make it work but it was completely miserable. I finally got my first girlfriend, a long time friend. I fell for her, treated her like a Queen just to find out she had been having sex with two other girls, never gave an explanation or anything.. So here I am still trying to find the self esteem that I am good enough for someone out there and looking for that person that will love me for me :)