Written on January 29th, 2013
I have been in a relationship for 2.5 years now and up until a couple months ago everything was going great. Then we started to have problems in the bedroom and we were only intimate maybe twice a week. I dont feel like that has anything to do with my currect dilemma but its most definitely not helping. I have been friends with this certain guy for 10 months now and ever since the very first time we met, we have had an overwhelming connection. Everytime we see eachother, it seems the connection grows more and more to where I am now thinking about him often and about my boyfriend less and less. The other night "Ben" came to my friends birthday party (my bf was at this party as well) and its like we were inseperable. Later on in the night, I went outside to get some air and not even a minute later, "Ben" came outside and sat beside me without saying anything. He looked at me and just smiled. We then started having an amazing conversation. I really wanted to kiss him and it was so obvious he wanted to kiss me. Before I had a chance to make that mistake, my best friend interrupted us (I was kind of happy, kind of disappointed). I have no idea what to do. I feel like its only a matter of time until "Ben" isnt such a gentleman, respecting my relationship boundaries, and just does what hes wanted to do so badly. Or until I become a cheater and kiss him.